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I’m having doubts, do you think it’ll work out in the end?

So I’m dating this much older woman. And she’s popular on social media. I got her to talk to me, and the rest is history. We’re long distance. But there’s some issues that I’m mad about or unsure of. She said she was in the process of getting a divorce when I first met her. However, I’m 90 percent sure that it’s her husband (or ex husband as she claims) that films her, because I sometimes see a guy’s shadow on her social media posts. So I think she lied to me. So there’s my other problem, I don’t think she’s been faithful to me at all when we’re not together in person. And I think I’m just her backup guy, or her boy toy (because she likes that I’m younger than her, and loves my looks). She claims she never been unfaithful, but I know she’s lying. She even has an only fans. So I don’t trust her. So I’m just not taking her seriously. Another problem is that she’s starting to age quickly now, and her looks are starting to fade. Like she now has wrinkles under her eyes, and loss of collagen. And she’s starting to claim to love me more, but I think it’s because she knows her time of looking pretty is up to most guys. I don’t want to love her, because I know I’ll get hurt. But I can’t help it. I do😢. Like I could get any kind of girl my age with my looks, personality, career, and heart, but I love her. I don’t know if I like her because maybe I have mommy issues? Or why I like her? When she’s the opposite of what I thought I would want from a woman. I like cute girls my age, and I hate cheaters. Hate girls who have only fans, and dislike liars. Yet she’s all of that, and I can’t kick her out of my life….

I’m having doubts, do you think it’ll work out in the end?
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