How can I fix depression?

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I've had it for about 5 years and it's only gotten worse, although I used to self harm in 2015 but I haven't done so since 2016 and don't have any intention of starting back up.

I take many medications for it but they're getting less and less effective but I'm already on the max dose for all of them. My psychiatrist won't subscribe anything else as an alternative as my most important one is Adderall and my insurance wouldn't cover anything else anyways.

I can't seem to lose weight no matter how much I exercise or how good I eat and I'm quickly losing motivation to exercise. I'm falling back into neglecting hygiene, when I first moved a few years ago, I neglected it so much that I sometimes went over a week without showering and months without shaving or getting a haircut.

I don't like spending time with family as all I have to drive for an hour to get there and I feel like a ghost the whole time. My mom just ignores me when I tell her about my depression.

I work 50 hours a week but make very little, and what little I do make just goes towards paying off the debt I got myself into through trying to find joy in buying stuff I wanted.

I shower maybe once every 3 days, I trim my body hair every day with a manscaped trimmer and I brush my teeth maybe twice a week. I'm so tired all the time and I can't find motivation to do anything at all. The entire day, every day at work, I say to myself over and over "I just want to go home, I don't want to be here" but my parents won't let me leave the job as my uncle put it in place for me.

The weekend seemingly ends in a few minutes and the workweek feels like years before I can finally leave but by the time the weekend finally comes, I'm so mentally drained that all I have the energy to do is play games inside and I just want to be left alone, I get very angry and irritated whenever someone enters my office, calls my name, and worst of all, touches something that belongs to me.

What can I do?
How can I fix depression?
How can I fix depression?
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