I found out I can't have kids one day, now what?

i can't tell anyone around me what's going on with me, I'm not ready for that yet, so I'm hoping people here can help. recently I got to thinking about my sperm count so I decided to check it by taking a home test, I ended up taking two, one like two weeks ago or so and then another a few days ago, both times I got a negative result which means I'm under 20,000, I'm incapable of reproducing, I'm not the type of the guy who likes the idea of living the single life or whatever his whole life, eventually I'm gonna wanna settle down have a family of my own, that's always how I assumed my life would go, its all I've really wanted, someone to love and a family to raise with that person, I know there's always adoption but its not the same thing and any girl I do fall in love with I'm gonna have to tell her about this problem before things get really serious, and what girls gonna wanna stick around after finding that out? I wouldn't blame them after all they would have just found out there's no future with me. What do you do when everything you thought you were working towards disappears? so someone please tell me, what is there to live for now? oh and don't worry I'm not suicidal I just don't know what to do next, its honestly quite heart breaking
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another question: what else is there to live for or aim for in life then a family one day?
I found out I can't have kids one day, now what?
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