Am I a crazy girlfriend?

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Me and my boyfriend are still in high school both upperclassmen and I am his first girlfriend--also I popped his man cherry.

I don't expect/want "us" to last forever but would love to be with him for a while, he just makes me so happy! Anyways I feel like he's finally become very confident, Often he is invited to parties and other high school gatherings with his friends. he invites me too but I am really shy and feel awkward and like I don't fit the scene. I also don't really like drinking. (smoking is fine)..so I would rather spend time with him in a small group or alone together. The problem is that since I don't go out to parties I'm really afraid he will find someone else ...More like mortified. I am paralyzed vocally about this because I feel I have no right to tell him what he can or can not do.

He also has a total wandering eye and it kinda bothers me. chicks complain and say he is creepy and a "weird pothead"... My theory about this label is Is they secretly find him hot--regardless of his asymmetry facially, lankiness/goofy awkward demeanor and general "good guy vibes" ...because hell, I find him so adorable! And I also enjoyed how early in our realtionship he would stumble over in my presence and check me out constantly and blush. He's everything I want in a boyfriend (at this point) and never have I felt so utterly protective, it's really concerning.

Also I noticed he was texting a freshman girl (very young) who is rather pretty...and I didn't mention it to him because I didn't want to sound too naggy, instead I asked him if he would ever cheat on me. After hearing this he discussed how "amazing and smart" I was and how he would nor could ever do that to me.

He "loves me".

And respects women...

I don't buy it... He's a teenage boy, but I can accept he cares for me regardless.

I care for him a lot too.

Probably more than I should.

I guess what I'm wondering is if my behavior is abnormal and am I a good girlfriend, (from what information you know)...also, is there a way I could try and relax more, I try focusing on my friends and life, but I always miss him. I always want him. I feel so pathetic...:(

Also he's going out tonight and even though I told him it doesn't matter...He promisedddd he would text me today;

he hasn't yet and I'm feeling a little neglected.

Should I even care?
Am I a crazy girlfriend?
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