Cystic acne/redness. I am desperate for help!

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Hi, I had cystic acne and did go to my dermatologist..twice. the first time I went and was prescribed Accutane, but did not finish up using every dose of medication. The second time I was prescribed another antibiotic and did the same thing, I have the last bottle of antibiotics left but is expired. I know I made a huge mistake by not finishing up the antibiotics and I can't stand my acne scars, and redness anymore. I am desperate for clear skin, but I am afraid of taking more medications because of the side affects listed. I am also embarrassed to face my dermatologist about not finishing up my antibiotics the second time which was my last choice she had told me. I am scared to go only to hear that there is nothing else that could be done, or if she might put me on more antibiotics which I am afraid of. Please any advice ?
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I believe it has to be genetic because my mom had it ever since she was 12, and my sibling also had it. The only difference is I never finished off my prescription. I am very upset with myself because I don't know if my dermatologist would even be able to prescribe something else, which I know us my fault but I am so worried now... :(
Cystic acne/redness. I am desperate for help!
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