Relationships.. Plans.. and Weddings

[legalboxers]

Today, like many people, are getting married today. As for me, today was one of the days the ex wanted to get married (10/10/2020 - if you see the numbers, but I think they wanted to do it in February 13, 2021). I had planned it in how she could of wanted it.

Something like this would of been prepared for us. By a beach, or bluff. Could see the moon and the stars.

you were walking down the isle to this song.

You looked so amazing in your wedding dress..

As for myself I looked okay-ish, in my tux..

I did not know your vows. But these were mine:

I do not believe you said yes to me when I asked you to marry me, and I still do not believe you are standing next to me, in this time, in this place, reciting vows before our friends and family. And I still do not believe, when all this ceremony is over, that you will be my beautiful wife. My person for eternity and life.

For twenty years of my life, I have experienced nothing but pain and hardship, heartache and pain. From getting my degree, as a high point. To volunteering my time to protect and serve the city in their times of need. To the death of my father, to the illness of my mother. I have seen many and dealt with many hardships. I did not think love would ever come to me, or I deserved love. When I met you during the worst time, in what the world was dealing with, with the world which was crashing down by us. The passing of your mother. I did not know what was in store for me.

But here I am, standing next to you. Through everything. I knew I found my person, my soulmate, my love. It took me twenty years for me to meet someone like you. Through all the storms, through the darkness. You found me in a place I was not happy with and did not deserve to be in. You lowered your love to the well of my despair, your love and devotion shined through in the darkest, and brought me to the light. And your love was the highest point. Which made me complete.

They say good things come to those who wait. And I waited long enough and I was about to loose hope. But, you are here, and I know everything will be okay, and I know both of our hearts are now one. I can't thank you enough for coming into my life. And being my soulmate..my person. my love..

But you are not here. You never existed, you are gone...And here I am. Wherever you are, I hope you are happy and smiling and got whatever you wanted in life. And I hope they made you and made you a wonderful life. I know you made a beautiful bride. Even though I was not there...

[pizzalovershouse]

Ok time to shead the tears an grieve your way back toyour self again