Honestly if you were to ask me about my looks I'd say i don't really think of myself as attractive. I'm too tall and skinny and I have a weirdly shaped face and my boobs and ass aren't big enough and I look like tired and really crappy without makeup. I also hate the way i talk my smile my laugh my body language pretty much everything.
I do get a lot of compliments and hit ons and all that and I guess I'm 'known' for being pretty by people who know me but see whenever I see that I don't see myself as pretty... I feel like I somehow fooled them into thinking I was pretty.
I've gotten to the point where im constantly bashing myself and telling people they're wrpng when they compliment me and nobody believes that im insecure. One of my friends said I was like acacia Brinley and was just looking for attention. I have had people literally get angry with me over this.
Why can't people believe that I genuinely don't like myself? And does anyone else have this problem? It feels shitty because I fucking HATE being insecure so it's really upsetting when people think I'm faking it
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What you are feeling is called Body Dysmorphic Disorder. You will believe that your own appearance is defective or should be hidden or fixed. The thoughts can be very intense, very pervasive and intrusive. You will probably end up displaying other issues related to appearance, though those will probably not resolve the symptoms of the BDD.
The problem is, you are very pretty. Like, in a facial feature way anyway (if the picture in your profile pic is you, that is). So they will see you, realize you are pretty, so when you say you are not it will come across as you either fishing for compliments, trying to be coy, looking for attention, or flat out faking it. Because you suffer from BDD though, you will honestly feel that you are not, so there will be a disconnect there.
And there will probably ALWAYS be a disconnection there if you don't get treatment. It can be treated through cognitive behaviour therapy.
What you are feeling is normal for someone suffering from the disorder. But you have to also understand that the rest of the world sees you differently than you are seeing yourself. Your self-image is distorted. So people aren't lying to you or trying to make you feel good. They are simply telling you how they see you.
You should look into treatment, to be honest. It will help you a lot.