Ask me anything, as a diagnosed psychopath and narcissist?

[Anonymous]

It's actually called anti-social personality disorder, and narcissist personality disorder... but those are the more well known terms, in the title.

To be clear, I haven't done anything horrible, though professionals who've helped study me say I definitely have the potential to if I just follow my gut instincts instead of thinking with rationality, and I'm also incapable of feeling guilt or remorse for my actions, as well as never feeling sympathy or empathy for anyone besides my own self. Not even my own parents.

I am not emotionless to be fair, but I am only emotional to things that affect me... I have zero emotion for anyone else, regardless of what happens to them. Like I've had older family members I've known my whole life die of old age/sickness, and I literally felt nothing. I didn't feel bad, but didn't feel good either. It just was to me... a part of life, and the cycle. Nothing more, nothing less.

I am only emotional like when people insult or attack me personally, because it's effecting me...

That's the short of it. Feel free to ask more questions.

[zollo]

Don't really have any questions, I just feel bad that you'll never know what it's like to be "Normal". If there was a way that was safe to change how you feel and give you the ability to over come this and be able to feel emotions would you take it?

[Asker]

Hmm... that's a good question, and also a very complicated one for me to think about... because though my situation isn't ideal, I've been living with it so long that now it's just not a big deal anymore, and any other way would just feel weird. And I'd also probably be a completely different person.

But on the other hand, if I wasn't this way I probably could've fit in better, struggled way less, and not be made fun of by others for being clearly different/emotionless. But then again, these struggles also made me stronger, and I can't imagine being myself without them!

So it's more of a 50/50 thing, but leaning more on no I wouldn't change, since I'm so used to being this way and learned how to cope. And I wouldn't want all my efforts to turn my weakness into a strength to go to waste with some "safe advanced cure."

[Account]

1. Have you ever experienced feelings of love and/or devotion? If not, when you saw people acting that way towards each other, did you consider it fake/acting?
2. Have you had a rough childhood?

[Pterodon]

How could you possibly be diagnosed? After all narcissists and psychopaths/sociopaths have nothing wrong with them

[Asker]

I knew I wasn't normal. I couldn't really relate to anyone. At first I thought everyone else was crazy, but if I was the only one this way, and everyone else was "different," maybe I was the crazy, weird, and different one? People also regularly called me psycho when I expressed my views anonymously on the internet. With all of that combined, I knew I'd probably better go to a professional.

[Pterodon]

Again. A narcissist or sociopath would never wonder if they were normal

[Pterodon]

Nor would they care

[Pterodon]

A narcissist/sociopath/psychopath would never care what others thought because they’re the ones fucked up nor would a narcissist/sociopath/psychopath ever go get evaluated because again there’s nothing wrong with them. I know everything about these people

[888theGreat]

yea, usually they set a cat on fire or kill someone before they are analyzed

[zollo]

Psychopath and narcissist- says they they got help.
Pterodon- Wait that's illegal

Here's a link to a cool video of an interview with a person with ASPD, I recommend watching the full video because it's really interesting but here's two time stamps that will answer your questions quickly. 2:10 He explain what it was like to know from a young age that something wasn't normal. 8:40 He explains how he got diagnosed. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bdPMUX8_8Ms

[Pterodon]

@zollo I don’t believe him

[Pterodon]

They cannot be helped nor will they ever seek help

[Jersey2]

Do you plan on staying single? I am not sure why you would marry.

[Asker]

Yeah, of course. I might have a quick fling or fuck here and there for the physical pleasure that it would bring ME, but nothing permanent. It'd just be a waste of time for both me and the other person.

[Iron_Man]

Do you people ever go back to normal

[Asker]

As far as I know, no, there is no cure for this. It could be genetic, it could be the environment you grew up in being fucked up for a developing child's mind... but there's no cure or going "back to normal."

[Iron_Man]

I’m sorry to hear that

[Asker]

Yeah... it's alright. No need to apologize, or for me to feel sorry for myself over something that no one could predict or have any control over. It just is what it is, lol.

[Iron_Man]

You are so nice and so upbeat I like your personality come by anytime to chat if you’d like

[Asker]

Haha, you are too kind. I try, I truly do. My emotions aren't really genuine as I barely feel them myself, but I do try to make a positive impact on the world and the people around me. Even for myself, I literally get no benefit from being negative to others. Being negative just causes drama, confusion, sometimes physical violence, etc... it ain't worth it.

[Iron_Man]

I’ve talk to girls like that before but it’s OK you can do what you want I won't push you 😊

[SamFromFL]

When you think about suicide, how would you do it?

[Asker]

The least pain to myself as possible. Like pills... hanging... shot to the head. Quick and painless.

Any type of cutting or knife sounds way too excruciating... burning alive is even worse... drowning also takes too long... etc.

[DescendantofLilith]

How do you score on the PCL-R?