Do you ever felt youself hating everything, people animals plants life kind of everything?

[OneNineZero]

I am into a phase now in my life where I simply hate everything although the word hate is a strong one, I dont talk to people I dont like pets or any animal I dont like plants I dont like anything, I hate happiness and the very concept of love and companionship,
The reason is I realised how useless everything is and how meaningless it has all become.

[WonderBell99]

No, but I do feel like I'm running out of empathy, not sure if it is a cause for concern. I'm just indifferent to everything and everyone these days.. even people I care about. I don't know why, but I used to empathize with people A LOT before.

I don't hate animals or plants. On the contrary, being out in the nature and watching animals play or cute videos of animals on YouTube improves my mood. My mood is like the English weather. Sunny and happy one minute and cloudy and stormy the next. I've been really stressed out because of a lot of factors - relationships, school etc.

I was an extremely sensitive kid, highly emotional and all - now i'm just numb and it's worked well so far. Planning to continue that. Wouldn't recommend to others because it is an unhealthy coping mechanism.

Sounds like you are going through an existential crisis. I would recommend speaking to a therapist.

[OneNineZero]

A therapist can't save me
No one can
No one can save the one who dont want to be saved

[WonderBell99]

Well, I'd argue it's not about saving you. Life is short - you have two choices: you can either choose to put yourself out of this misery, go to a therapist, improve yourself and try to be happy OR you can choose to ignore all signs of depression, hoping to fill the void but not do anything about it and wallow in your own despair. Harsh, but you need to hear the truth.

[OneNineZero]

I think you misread my truth
I am not depressed or suicidal it's just that I have seen the darkness and know that's it's necessary and have accepted it made peace with it
It's not a bad thing to say the world is beyond saving now coz it's true

[WonderBell99]

You're describing depression.

This world is beyond saving, that's true, but you are not. Nobody can "save" you, but yourself.

[OneNineZero]

I dont want to save myself and it's not bad
In order to save myself I have to go blind again start living in the illusion of a good positive good world that is fake and long lost
The people rip and eat each other and it's just how much one can eat until there is nothing left

[WonderBell99]

Well, life ain't fair. Welcome to world. Not all people are bad though. Deep down everyone is a selfish bitch, but not everyone is all too bad. Sounds like your ex was a piece of trash. Sorry about that

[OneNineZero]

The whole world is a piece of trash, I own a law firm and I see politicians businessmen and people from influential family come to my office and they feel they can get away from anything with money power and influence, everyone is just destroying themselves and others around them they just don't know that

[WonderBell99]

Who said powerful people WEREN’T trash? These morons think they can get away with everything just because they have money. Is that something new? No. This shit has been happening for ages. What do you propose we do? We can’t do anything about it except not accept bribery and be truthful to ourselves. This world is corrupt. Life is unfair. We should just deal with it.

[OneNineZero]

Everything has a end the society has an end too and that end has already begun, some people won't belive it some people would try to stop it but they all will fail they all have to, 30 years down the line life would be more shit then it is now we all know it
Bangladesh and India might fight for fresh water specially the one that is between the borders, poverty and crime will rise obviously people know that but they can't stop it , the leaders they will just abandoned us, who said they have not already done that, Pakistan is pretty much every man for himself now
Sri Lanka has food crysis and govt has declared it as emergency, mankind will not last long and it should not that is the truth no one wants to belive

[WonderBell99]

I’m not sure how India, Pakistan and Sri Lanka come into play here. I heard Sri Lanka is going through some pretty hard shit though.. with the food crisis and all. Poor them.

[OneNineZero]

Mankind is happening, out planet cannot sustain so much population and the world leaders know it I am not sure if the location but there Is a metal structure which has some rules writen for human and it clearly says reduce population to less than 1 billion which means that anyhow we have to reduce a very big chunk of population hence the biological weapons and thats the only one people know of
What many dont know is that world leaders belive muslims are threat and they usually have more children then others so keeping in mind their food habits a genetically modified banana is prepared, coz muslims eat lot of fruits it's in their lifestyle, slowly their numbers will fall, the affect is clear in India in 2021 the number of children born has gone down ofcourse reasons like corona and economy are factors but this will most likely continue

[OneNineZero]

It's the goergia guidestone that monument says population should be less than half a billion and a planner genocide is taking place and evidence is very clear when corona hit earth America was almost about to start a war with China but it didn't it was all a show for the people, all the leaders are together in this, the want q manageable controllable population

[WonderBell99]

India has a population of 1.38 billion. This is because years ago, people were not aware of contraceptive methods. There was no family planning. Also, there are many people in the fertile age group now. The population will likely decrease after 2050 and reach plateau due to emigration, many more people choosing to not have kids etc.

Just like any other politician around the world, India’s politicians are corrupt as well. Nothing out of the ordinary.

[OneNineZero]

Well population won't go down naturally something has to be about it, govt may be doing something about it covertly
Corona can be a test the real thing is yet to come

[WhatTheHeckkkk]

No, not everything. I usually catch myself hating myself or other people. I never hate animals or any other living thing (besides humans) because there’s not really a reason to hate them, in my experience.


I have my days where I just get frustrated at the world in general, but it goes away once I look at the deeper feeling, which is usually me frustrated at myself or the things I have experienced by other people.

[OneNineZero]

It's a matter of how you see and why you see

[ChiTown33]

Maybe when I was a little younger than you. Like in my early 30's. But I also used to judge myself very harshly back then. I thought of the world as this dragon I had to slay, so-to-speak. A little before 40 I'd say I accepted who I was and my place in this world. The simple truth is don't worry about what others think. Because the odds are most people are just thinking about themselves. And the few times they think about you is just in how you relate to their life lol.
Happiness is a choice and I choose to be happy. You'll be happiest if you keep your expectations of people low my man. Otherwise people will always disappoint you.
That's my take anyhoo

[HighlyVolatile]

Only in the worst times in my life. Meaning is something you build as I see rather than find. Life is meaningless unless we build meaning into it.

It's like a sandbox video game is meaningless and boring unless you give yourself a goal, like set the longest motorcycle jump in the game's history. Now it has meaning!

[HighlyVolatile]

What you're describing sounds like an existential crisis. I had that one time long ago after a broken heart (an ex broke up with me right before marriage):

[OneNineZero]

It's not a crysis, it's more like a answer a true answer, in a way, I am not suicidal yet I am not depressed it's just I have developed a feeling to just don't like anything, I dont interact which some people will call contradictory since I am here talking to real people but my objective is quiet simple since I haven't endee yet and not decided to do anything about it yet I am just wasting seconds it's not a good thing but it don't have to be

[HighlyVolatile]

Well, fundamentally life is pointless if we aren't immersed in it. The universe is silent with respect to answers about the meaning of existence. Our very exchange here is pointless as well under that mindset. Yet if we're immersed in life, there can be a point. For example, I'm a fun-lover! I enjoy having fun with people. I see a point in making things fun.

[OneNineZero]

I just want to get over it quick coz it don't really matter, it's like you know you will leave at 5:30 and it's 1 and you just have to spend time until 5:30 and there is nothing interesting to do coz everything is just fake

[ShineBeauTAEfully]

No, I have always loved everyone and every little thing around me.
How are you doing?

[OneNineZero]

How am I doing? I dont know
I think I am doing ok some might think I am beginning to go suicidal or losing my mind sort of stage
My soon to be ex wife said I deserve to die
But I am ok I think

[ShineBeauTAEfully]

Do you have anyone you can talk to? If not, I am here for you.
Please don’t listen to her. She doesn’t mean that, and even if she does, it’s not true.

[OneNineZero]

I talk to the stars they are better than humans they told me the truth I see it all now they watched this endlessly before man and after man

[ShineBeauTAEfully]

Do you like the stars?
Sometimes I talk to my reflection or my cat when I want to get something off of my chest.

[OneNineZero]

When I see myself in the mirror all I see is a guy who looks like me, there is something in his eyes they look lost, he says something sometimes but I can't hear them clearly it's like long lost echos, I saw him crying at midnight when the moon was high up in the sky, he don't smile I have never seen him smile in years, he put his hand on the mirror I could read it but the letters were reversed it said Die Now

[ShineBeauTAEfully]

Do you write? The way you worded that made it seem like a poem.
What do you think about the man in the mirror’s message?

[OneNineZero]

I did, I dont write anymore
My diary is old and torn I keep losing pages
And my world is like no one's been there since a ages
I got demons to fight got to put them in their cages
My life is life a endless game with infinite unbeatable stages

I tried to find myself in the pages and the words I wrote, I could not so I burner myself the Ash was on the floor but I was not haunted anymore
The pages would try to drown my when I was asleep
So it's better to burn and bury them, rather than keep

[ShineBeauTAEfully]

It looks like you still do, and you are really really good at it. ☺️

[OneNineZero]

I dont want to write down my darkness
It's meaningless now
I am just wasting seconds, one day it will be time to check out I will check out

[ShineBeauTAEfully]

Why is it meaningless?

[OneNineZero]

It's like living in a big house so big you don't go into all th rooms and some of those rooms have paintings on the walls no one would see
Even if you would see them they are not interesting they are just there just like stones on the walkway you have kicked some of those stones while to were there
Many others have too,

[ShineBeauTAEfully]

Why don’t you go into every room?
Just because you don’t find the paintings interesting, it doesn’t mean that everyone will share your opinion. Some might believe the paintings to be masterpieces.

[OneNineZero]

When a person dies all belongings that he would love would be useless for someone else it's natural some of it might be useful very particularly anything that holds financial value, my wife just wanted my financial value she specifically asked for a high amount of money every month and me to stay away from her life
All the other things were pretty much useless to her that would be loyal care love sort of things, so this pretty much is a clear evidence of what people value, if I would be q great poet who's rights would be worth a million it would be worth something to someone but it's not ,,
So in that case it's just like those conversations you hear when you are on the bus or train you listen them you might be interested in them for a while but you forget them the second you step down

[ShineBeauTAEfully]

When someone dies you keep the things of value, like the things that they cherished and the things that remind you of them. What is valuable has nothing to do with the cost of something, but it has everything to do with the feelings it brings out and memories it gives to you and other people.
You should do what makes you happy. Don’t think about the money. I would rather be poor and happy than rich and miserable. Of course you do need money to eat and live in a house, but all that extra stuff is unnecessary. It’s nice to have, but it is not important. What’s important is making ourselves and others happy. At least that’s what I think.

[OneNineZero]

Maybe I am not well mentally
I dont like anything
I dont have a problem not liking anyone , it's not that the thing with my wife was the main reason , it was the final nail, now I am just going on, I won't give anyone else any chance ever coz I belive absolutely belive that there is no good left in this world , and this is no better off without saving, I have started to treat this world as a dying body, let it die it's ok that's how I think
Well no one will miss me and I dont want to be missed, I am better off forgotten,
I have made peace with all the dark void inside and outside all over I dont try to get out of it, I dont even want to know what's outside whatever it is I dont care,

[ShineBeauTAEfully]

There is definitely still good in the world! I know that it might be hard to believe, because most people only focus on the negative and ignore the positive. There are definitely still amazing good hearted people in this world.
I would miss you.

[OneNineZero]

You won't, listen when someone talk to someone who is miserable like me they feel sorry not absolute sorry coz that would only happen if something really bad would happen to you but still they feel sorry
Then they stop seeing those people probably coz they are dead or out of communication then humans just move on
You as a human dont have to time to stay in one moment for long, no one does
But it's necessary and I think it's a good feature, this is not my first account here but would probably be my last
I made myself a promise if I delete this profile this time I won't ever get to this
By this means online communication thingy

[ShineBeauTAEfully]

That’s not true at all! I still think about people I talked to over 10 years ago who weren’t in a good place, and wonder how they are doing. Unfortunately, I have no way of knowing, because they deleted their account. I also still pray every night for this girl I met on the internet two years ago who was going through a really tough time. Last time I checked she is doing a lot better, but I still check in on her every now and then.
I know I don’t know you, but I would miss you if I knew something happened to you.

[OneNineZero]

You wouldn't know
No one would

[ShineBeauTAEfully]

That’s the worst part!
I would be so worried, because I wouldn’t know if you were okay or not.

[OneNineZero]

I think you should focus on your life rather than worry about wandering ghosts

[ShineBeauTAEfully]

I am focusing on my life. I believe that my purpose in life is to make others happy.

[OneNineZero]

It's not coz hapiness does not work that way, you can't make someone happy who does not understands hapiness or have abandoned happiness,
It's a learning process actually it takes times, but I don't feel happy about anything I just spend seconds

[ShineBeauTAEfully]

I also believe it is my purpose to be there for people who are not happy.

[OneNineZero]

Are you into some sort of God shit? You sound like you are someone who believes in God and all coz I have met lot of atheists and they are very practical almost cold hearted as some would say and I dont mind that coz no one can help anyone else
Its either one can help himself out or not , nothing apart from that ever really happens

[ShineBeauTAEfully]

Yes. I am Catholic and come from a family that was heavily involved in our local church. One of my best friends is Atheist, and he is one of the kindest, pure hearted people you will ever meet. My friends always put others before themselves, as do I, more people do than you believe.

[OneNineZero]

This world is full of pretenders all monsters hiding in human faces I have seen it I get powerful people in my office everyday businessmen politician they have done all the evil that can be done and then want to get away with it, that's the real world we live in
No on really cares about any one else they pretend to or maybe had to , to get something later on but there is no selflessness that people think it's still around

[ShineBeauTAEfully]

I know you probably won't believe me, but I help people/animals without wanting anything in return. What I get in return is the joy of knowing that they are okay. I know I am not the only person like this.

[OneNineZero]

You are wasting daylight
Think about yourself
Help yourself no one else needs saving
They all are facing what their life wants them to see
We all are prisoners of our own life we can't escape it until we die

[ShineBeauTAEfully]

If I couldn't help others, then my life would have no meaning.
They may be facing what life wishes for them to face, but they don't have to face it alone.
Life is only a prison if you make it one.

[OneNineZero]

It's a prison regardless of what you think, you can blind yourself with illusions that's what everyone does that's the easy part, I think you should spend sometime out of places like this, you won't find much good here

[ShineBeauTAEfully]

Places like this?
Everyone I have met has been nice to me. Well not always lol, but they always apologize after.

[OneNineZero]

Listen Angel
I think you got a wrong sense of what exactly I am
I know I sound lost and depressed but actually I am not
I am in peace with the situation coz I understand that this is all the right things that need to happen the corruption of society the turning of man into mindless beasts all the hate the self destructive nature of things all of this is necessary and instead of fighting it or being scared of it I just accepted it
God abandoned me and I abandoned him in return now we are even

[ShineBeauTAEfully]

Do you think you are a mindless beast?
I choose to accept that right now you might be surrounded by darkness, but eventually the light will come.
Are you religious?

[ShineBeauTAEfully]

I was just wondering how you are; I hope you are doing better. 😊

[8Bit_LYNX]

You’re the type that shoots up a mall or a school. Like yikes! 🤯😰

[OneNineZero]

I belive humanity has already ended
It's just a dead body now decomposing
So I won't go after people I dont have to
People are mentally sick they don't know and won't accept that, we all are just blinded by illusions

[8Bit_LYNX]

🤝🤙🏻

[Nikki1989]

I have never felt anything close to that.