Relationships

Why I’ll Probably Be Alone Forever

I’m not voluntarily choosing to be single. If I find the right guy, that would be a miracle for a girl like me. I may be very odd for a woman, but I don’t care about his salary, height and education. But all of these factors listed make my dating pool smaller. I don’t plan on changing them because I simply don’t want to change. I want to be myself and maintain my integrity. If I stay alone forever, I would be depressed sometimes but I will still cope with it.

I’m very sensitive and I hold grudges

These days, I have lower tolerance for bullshit. I realized I’m the kind of person who easily finds reasons to dislike people. I don’t like to hide how I feel about someone. I usually tell them what the problem is and then I tell them to go away. The grudges I held have motivated to self sabotage my relationships with people. I like to cut people out of my life if I don’t like them anymore. This habit is definitely going to cut out a lot of guys because many of them tend to be insensitive. I rarely get approached first, but almost every guy that has been attracted to me was an asshole in some way.

I’m dominant

I’m sexually dominant. I also have a sadistic side to me. Most guys seem to only want to be with someone who’s submissive. Maybe one of the reasons why guys don’t approach me (or avoid me) is probably because I seem like a sex freak with crazy ass kinks.

I don’t want kids

I know I’d make a very horrible mother and I shouldn’t ever be allowed to have kids. I think most people want kids at some point in their life, so not wanting kids can be a dealbreaker for a lot of guys.

Guys rarely approach me

It’s probably because I have many conventionally unattractive physical traits. Even while I was visibly alone in school or public, they rarely approached me. If they don’t approach me while I’m between 18 to 24, then they are less likely to approach me later on in life. I put my career and education first, so I’m probably going to stay in school until I’m 28. I tried approaching guys first in the past, but I didn’t have good experiences with that so I’m not going to do it again.

I’m a socially awkward loner

I have a mild form of autism, which is a problem whether people like to admit this or not. I have difficulty reading faces and keeping a conversation. This is what long-term relationships require. It’s very difficult for me to establish close, personal relationships with people. I’m a loner because I don’t like people. In the past, friends have brought me more trouble than good. Being a loner isolates me from the dating pool because I don’t have the friends that will help me access my dating pool. Isn’t that one of the things that friends provide for each other?

Well probably
Well probably
Why I’ll Probably Be Alone Forever
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