Last year at school... I didn't have many friends, I was a lonely girl who wouldn't go out very often, but still a romantic person with a kind heart.
In fact, loneliness killed me. My life sucked. I had chosen to withdraw from those who had hurt me in the past, but that doesn't mean I had no desire to make any new acquaintances.
I said it's OK, I've messed it up in my physical world but at least I can have a try in my virtual reality. I had always been interested in finding international pals so I joined an app for international friendships and relationships. I know that such apps can be quite hazardous as there are lots of malicious perverts, so I was very careful and didn't share that much about my identity.
At first, I just wanted to make friends. I love Chinese culture so I searched for Asian pals... And there I found that Chinese guy from Singapore... Two years older than me, interested in ancient Greek history and mythology... I'm Greek myself, so it was quite easy for us to find common interests thanks to our mutual love for each other's culture. Within a month we became great friends and I even found an ancient Greek nickname for him.
But suddenly something strange happened. Something paranormal, beyond my reason, beyond what my brain can explain. You see, we lived more than 9,000 km away from each other but there was such a strong bond between our hearts that distance didn't matter at all. At nights I'd dream about him and about his country and all of my dreams would immediately come true. This hasn't happened in my life again. My dreams could predict his actions, I'd see his messages in my dreams and the day after he'd send me exactly the same ones!
I had never seen his face. He was scared to share it with me. He was even scared to tell me his real name. I didn't care... Love is blind, I loved him for what he really is, neither for what he's called nor for his genes.
Four months passed... My love for him hadn't stopped growing. He was great in each and every aspect. Knowledgeable, moral, polite, good-hearted, loyal... What a nice feeling it is to text to your beloved one. But what a bad feeling it is to keep it a secret from everyone. Yes, I chose to keep it a secret even from my parents because they wouldn't allow me to stay in that long-distance relationship. And it hurt even more cuz I couldn't stop imagining spending the rest of my life with this person, visiting his country, taking him to mine and even marrying him... So unfortunate none of my dreams was realistic. So unfortunate I knew I'd have to move on and find a new boyfriend...
But the most unfortunate things occured when we completed five months together. The most important exams of my life were very close so I'd have to study very hard and give up on social media and stuff. That meant I'd have to text him mush less frequently. He also announced to me he'd move to Australia... Australia is so far away from my country and thus time difference between our countries would be even bigger. I couldn't stand this. He couldn't stand this either. I didn't dare to share my thoughts with him. He didn't dare to do that either... Had we done so maybe we would have been able to find a solution??? Not that sure about that but at least separation wouldn't seem unavoidable at first sight.
At the same period, I met a guy who made a great impression on me. I felt the difference between meeting somebody offline and online. Because when we're online we can easily become who we would hope to be, we don't usually remain who we really are. So I started doubting for my online boyfriend. I felt my relationship was not worth at all. I don't totally regret it, I'm just wonder how I got in this relationship.
So, an afternoon I decided to delete all of the social media accounts I had been using to communicate with my Singaporean boyfriend. I left... Silently, without any words, without any apologies... And shortly after that, my love for him vanished and sorry if I'm letting you down, my dear readers, but as soon as you notice something can't be helped, you have to move on... So I moved on... And even found a new boyfriend... The other guy I told you before...
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