A few weeks ago, I found his secret email account in addition to all his searches on CL on his computer. I confronted him about it and he told me it was unacceptable and he had no excuse, but that it was just for porn/entertainment and that he has never followed through or cheated. He said that he has been doing it for years, and basically never stopped when we started dating over a year ago.
I asked him if this was a far as it went, if he had other accounts, emails, had he ever sent pics or had a relationship with any of them and he said no.
A few days later, I found another email account and a few days after that I found pics he had taken of himself. I managed to hack into the email accounts and found only a couple of messages as he had deleted all the others prior to me finding all this out. There messages are as he described, simple requests for pics etc. I did find that he did research one girl & the 'meetup' link she sent him, which he found out to be a dating scam online, as most of them are. What of she was not a scam though? Would he have followed through? I can't see the search history further than one month, so I don't know if that behavior is typical as well.
He told me he never talked to a 'real' person or followed through with anything. He has been super depressed for the past 2 weeks, he wakes up crying some mornings wanting to hold me and tell me how much he loves me. I believe him and know that we have something very special, as we have known each other for a long time and our connection and relationship is special. He was lonely for several years prior to us getting together, and I know that this started out of basic need for companionship and low self esteem... it just never stopped once we got together.
I want to love him and I want to trust him. I don't know how to succeed in this though. Any advice would be appreciated.
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