Wife cheated with twin and another brother?

Anonymous
I’m 31 and have been with my wife since highschool. 9 months before my son was born she slept with my twin. Not cool. He told me 2 years later. When I needed time to process it (2 weeks later) she fucked her co worker and denied it. He and other people said different. 2 years later my mom sees my other brother and her laying on a couch “spooning” through the front door glass and knocks on the door and sees him jump up and fix his belt and pants. She denied that and said they where just laying there. I puked and prayed so hard for god to have them lie to me because I couldn’t stomach it. A cousin told me that my brother told him he felt bad and it was like 10x. Another 2 years later I get a phone call from her ex’s girlfriend crying saying that my wife sent her boyfriend nude photos. The same photos were sent to me. I’m pretty sure they fucked because she went home that week and the times matched. When I tried to stay strong and stay away I was sick because I loved her. She cried after the 2nd brother and said she wanted to die. When I found out about the ex I just said I’m not surprised anymore.
I fucked my boss’ daughter and another girl while we where separated. I told her.
I’m a great looking guy, funny and I’m good at doing sex. I never ask for head because I know she doesn’t like doing it. I always make sure she gets off. This wasn’t my fault.
Even though I prayed for lies because I was too weak to hear the truth. If I heard the truth from her mouth maybe I could of healed better. To this day we never talk about any of it. I bottled it up and I’m thinking I should of handled this differently. But I’m unsure. I hate that I’m unsure if I should leave. I’m unsure if I truly forgave. I feel like I’m starting to become a dick. I used to be the best person I knew. When I get angry or she’s really shitty to me- I think about it and that’s unfair to both of us. Why do I do that?
Wife cheated with twin and another brother?
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