Should I confess that I love him? What to do when you love someone so much it hurts?

Anonymous
Hi everyone, first question on this site. thanks for your time.

I dated a guy at my workplace. He was a manager and I was just a customer service rep. We worked at a grocery store where dating was forbidden between managers and coworkers. We kept it secret from everyone. I loved him the moment we met eyes. I never stopped loving him. He seemed like I knew him before. I never felt so familiar with a person. We barely dated for two weeks until he pushed my boundaries too far. I broke up with him via text, and quit my job saying it was for family issues. But then the company told me I could come back, so I did after one month. The company still has no clue about it. I wanted to make a point that he couldn't push me out of my job. I went back and although it was awkward, I think I also wanted to see him. This happened in Oct 2018.

Keep in mind, this was my first relationship and I never dated or kissed anyone until him. I was very naive, and we were moving very fast because our chemistry was off the wall. I was scared, I didn't want to lose him if I gave it up too quick. He put a lot of pressure on me until our final date, he went too far and I just dumped him.

After that, I worked with him for a few months and we never talked, even though he said we could. I was still confused. He said he was so sorry about everything. But I was still really fragile about it all. Only 2 people knew we dated. Then 6 months later, he steps down as manager and asks out a girl who just started working there. And he did it right in front of me.. I cried and cried and still cry about it. It was heartbreaking. He did it to mess with me maybe I don't know.. He not only broke my heart once but twice. They would talk in front of me and laugh. It sucked. So I quit for good after two months.

Over 4 months since I have last seen him. I can't stop thinking about him. Should I tell him my feelings and now I'm ready to talk? I dream about him 24/7. I cry about him all the time... What would you do?
Should I confess that I love him? What to do when you love someone so much it hurts?
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