Am I gay or why do I not want a long term relationship?

My imagination isn't catching the wave on what could be in store during a ltr with a female

Im slightly concerned about myself

Nobody hurt me or lied to me or cheated on me

I've asked girls before do you wanna marry me as a joke and theyre like is that necessary. Lets just do it and you leave

Im still slightly concerned about why I am this way

"Whats wrong with you"

Im not you just move on if you hate me. I semi hate you too because... i am a christian, i can't hate my enemies therefore you aren't an enemy you are an antime🤷‍♂️

#mildlydepressed

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Listening to Jesus chapter 7 - what a cool guy. "Why do ye go about to kill me? Pharisees (egotistical losers) say, "you have a devil (you're crazy), nobody is trying to kill you!!!" And jesus replies "I do one work, and ye marvel (you're so pathetic you haven't done ONE)" AND YE ARE ANGRY BECAUSE I DID IT ON Sunday? (You have small penises)
Am I gay or why do I not want a long term relationship?
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