Do I want a relationship?

Anonymous

I met a girl on Discord. Before anybody cuts in: I think it's perfectly normal to have an online relationship. Also, she's relatively close by, and we could definitely meet in real life. She's cute. She's sweet. She's inexperienced. Never had a boyfriend before.

Our relationship is very friend like. I flirt with her occasionally. But since when I first met her I had feelings for somebody else, (with whom that other relationship has since resolved) I didn't aggressively flirt with her. Our vibe is very chill, very comfortable with each other.

Lately she's been blowing up my phone, always wanting attention. I confessed to her that I like her. She acts like she likes me too, but perhaps because of her anxiety, perhaps because of her limited experience with romance she seems very hesitant, and perhaps unequipped to be a girlfriend and to have her first relationship.

On the other hand she seems thoroughly addicted to me, and despite her willing to admit it, I think she would cry, cry, and cry some more if I got into a relationship with someone else.

I like her, I told her how I feel about her, but I'm starting to think that if she can't open up to me, if she can't reciprocate my affection, and she's just gonna be stuck in a place of calling me on the phone just to hang out like if we were buddies... I dunno, I think I would be happier pursuing somebody else.

It's so bizarre. I confess to her that I like her, and instead of reacting, instead of telling me about how she feels, she just continues the same way doing the same exact things.

It's like, "HELLO? I want a girlfriend. Is that not what you want? Did you not get jealous when I mentioned that other girl? Do I or do I not make your heart go pitter patter?"

And part of me is just wondering that maybe I just want a sexual relationship. Maybe I just want to hook up with a girl that's easy. Maybe I'm just addicted to the chase...

Do I want a relationship?
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