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I don't know what to feel anymore?

I am dating a guys who has a kid , if you go to my profile I be talking about situations that has happened w him. He had went out a Friday night w his friends, he would text me drunk expressing his love for me that he’s happy he met someone who loves him & his son. when he went to sleep I checked his phone , went through him & his bm messages , she would send pictures of their kid when he was a baby & he would heart it , she then sent one of the bby and her , he hearted it. Then the messages end up going to how they wanted a family but she messed up and he had problems bc of her so & so. He then told her he has probation that he went to court alone ( which in that case was a lie bc I had went w him) she had then said “ should’ve told me , i would’ve went “ , I honestly didn’t even feel surprised because I should know what to expect. It bothered me that he lied to her saying he went alone & didn’t mention me. I try so hard to trust him but literally little stuff like this can turn into something big. I feel like I’m just overthinking but it hurts because I am so loyal to him & I hate w a passion to look stupid.

I don't know what to feel anymore?
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