So a week ago, we kinda came to a mutual agreement that we should probably take a break so I could focus on myself. He said that because I was going through some stuff at the time and my anxiety was getting worse, and he could tell I was struggling. I've had trouble eating in front of him and asking when I need or want things, so he said the next time we see each other, which would have been 2 weeks with our schedules, we both wanted to see improvement. Well, that stressed me out a lot and put a lot of pressure on me, so I talked to him about it, and that's when we decided to call it off.
We had only been talking for about two months, and we both already said that we both wanted something with each other, but for me, it might have been too much too soon. Everyone keeps telling me I'll find a better guy, but it will take time right now, I don't want to be with anyone else but him. He made me feel so happy and safe that I could trust him. I told him a lot about me that most people don't know. Usually, I'm a shy and nervous person, which I was but was also starting to open up more around him faster than I do most people. If I had a second chance, I would take it. He has already helped me work through a lot of my fears, whether he knows it or not. And whenever I had a bad day or was upset, he was there for me. A few times willing to drop everything to help, or if he just got off work or had a really long day was always willing to be there.
While he told me that I could still text him, I feel like it was not the same. And while I haven't technically lost him, I feel like I have, and I would do anything to get him back. I don't know if I should wait a few months and see if I feel the same or try now. Cause he might be moving a few hours away in a few months, and I don't want to lose my chance if I still have one. Typically if I am not sure if I want something and I can't forget about it, I go for it, and I haven't been able to stop thinking about him.
