Is there something wrong with me? Why am I not scared after has an abusive past?

[xolaurenxx]

I’ve had a few women message me regarding my boyfriend. They’ve said he threatened to kill them and that he beat one up till she was black and blue and she went in hospital and this happened when she was pregnant. They said he broke down their door and broke in the home to hurt one of them. Then another one he lifted her up and threw her down the stairs and broke her phone. Then another one he was threatening to stab if she wouldn’t go out to lunch with him. and I found this all out today. Now I’m reading this back it makes me cry but why do I still have feelings for him? He hasn’t done anything like this to me but these are 5 different women and I know I’m not stupid and I’d be next. He’s have me verbal threats before and it’s went over my head but now I’ve seen he can go through with it I’m still speaking to him and I don’t know why? What is wrong with me I know this will end in me being killed I don’t understand what’s wrong why am I not super afraid right now.

[dynamicyandere]

There’s nothing wrong with you. It’s normal to be confused. Because you haven’t experience anything that these exes have talked about. It’s their word vs your experience.


Logically, you may reason that if 5 people said the same thing, maybe they’re right, and you should leave.


Emotionally, you have never felt in that sort of danger before. From your experience he hasn’t been like that with you.


You then KNOW you may be in danger, yet you FEEL safe enough to stay.


It’s a mismatch between your mind and your heart.

[WanderingLoveWizard]

Love brings blindness, and blindness brings serenity.
I imagine those blinders might slip off the first time he smacks you in the jaw

[WanderingLoveWizard]

Someone needs to take that piece of shit out back and put him down like a sick dog

[xolaurenxx]

Yes that’s the thing with me it takes it having to happen to me for me to not be blind but then it’s very dangerous I’m this way as I basically wait for the bullet to hit me then I realise

[WanderingLoveWizard]

You're not alone. Plenty of women have done the same, even after they've been hit. I doubt he'll go straight to killing you, but it could lead to that eventually.
I hope for your sake he doesn't hit you. Do whatever feels right. Those guys can change. It's rare but they can

[WanderingLoveWizard]

I was a verbally and emotionally abusive pos at one point and I changed. I'll never yell and scream at or belittle a woman again for as long as I live.
(Except for the women on here, they're free game)

[MementoMori777]

It's cause you love him, you saw him in a different light, you should run from that mf tho no lie