Why do I feel so perverted about this?

Anonymous
I have a new friend at work who just moved here. We’re the same age and have bonded over a lot and she told me she’s bisexual. I have a boyfriend but he lets me be with girls and one thing i want most in life right now is to be with a girl sexually. I’m almost 22 and bi. I’m not out yet but if asked, I won’t deny that I like girls. Most people don’t ask because I have a boyfriend.

The girl and I talk a lot at work to where people assume we’re like best friends. We’ve started hanging out and last weekend, she wanted to see a movie and we were both saying how excited we were. When we got there we told each other how cute we looked and she ordered alcohol and let me take a sip after her out of her cup to try it, so I assumed she was at least comfortable with me lol. she has told me she just came out of a really bad relationship so not looking for a relationship but has also told me she’s shy and wants the other person to make the first move.

When she talks to me we get really close in each others personal space to the point where it’s kind of weird and she makes a lot of eye contact with me even when I’m not looking.
We plan to hangout again and eventually I’ll come to her house because she’s invited me so maybe things will escalate I don't know. I didn’t mean for this to happen but I feel vibes when we talk lol like I really enjoy talking to her and it’s really fun. She’ll show me scars on her body or her tattoos which I can’t help but think is kind of a sign lol. It’s to the point where I get really upset if we’re talking at work and people interrupt.

I feel weird because I need more platonic girlfriends because I don’t have a lot but also think this could be fun. I don’t want to creep her out and she doesn’t have a lot of friends here yet. What do I do?
Why do I feel so perverted about this?
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