Am I being too sensitive about this?

[Anonymous]

I personally feel like when it comes to my immediate family (Mom, dad and sister.) it always feels like I’m the one who’s always wrong. I’m always the one making bad choices and decisions. I’m the one who is the bad guy 100% of the time. I’m the “Bad one” and I’m always the one apologizing and fixing tension and mending the relationship dynamic between us. No, I’m not perfect and I have been wrong but it just feels odd that I’m the only one that’s always wrong and imperfect and no one else is. Or at least it feels that way because it’s always ME. If I were to sit down and explain this to them, I know they will shut me out and not hear me. I’m not saying they’re terrible people because they aren’t but they seem to feel comfortable with always putting the pressure on me.

[Saiesh30]

It sounds like you're carrying a heavy emotional burden within your family dynamics. It's essential to recognize and validate your feelings. Feeling like the "bad guy" all the time can be incredibly isolating and frustrating. Your feelings are valid, and it's okay to express them, even if you fear being shut out.
Hope you have a trusted friend or someone who can give you the space you need as an individual to be able to speak out freely and be yourself.
You deserve to feel heard and valued within your family.
It happens to the youngest of the family too or someone who's the quietest amongst the group of people who are outgoing and loud. So, it could be that as well.

[Asker]

Yea. I’m the quiet one. It just seems like no matter what I do they always find a way with or without words to make me feel horrible. It could also just be me overthinking that caused that feeling but energy doesn’t lie. Like, I’m not a murderer. I can do something like maybe stay in the shower a little too long. My intentions are never to take over long showers but I can easily get caught up and even when I feel I’m not in there long, the fact ends up being I was showering long, even when my goal is not to be inconsiderate. I even set a timer to time myself but Let them tell it, I’m selfish, I’m lying about not timing myself in the shower and they say “How would you feel if we did that to you?” Which I get they’re frustration but the difference with that would be they did it with intent, I’m not but they’re so focused in on over highlightingone minor flaw of mines they don’t even hear me and the showering is only thing/experience. It’s plenty more.

[Saiesh30]

Aww! I feel for you. I know that feeling. It's a mix of both - overthinking and them actually doing it. And honestly I've learnt to live with it. People don't change as I've learnt over the years. We have to change ourselves to rise above their toxic energy. Not saying they are bad but they're just the way they are owing to their respective life experiences.

[firenine909]

You’re not being sensitive. You’re basically the person they love blaming for things going wrong. I’d suggest moving out