I might have chosen to just find him annoying since I didn't think I liked him and he didn't seem to either. For example, I had stye once and when asking if it was obvious and he looked away saying "I don't look into your eye' and went silent when I asked for his birthday - I ask that question to most people, He stopped interacting after Christmas, especially with the brief January lockdown in 2021. I saw him walking ahead of me in May and he stopped to let me catch up but even then he looked uninterested in talking and I was amid an ED- still in the middle of a healthy BMI but my mind was elsewhere - so it didn't matter then. We spoke a few words in June and it was just him in a group boasting about something silly.
I think we applied to the same university, but he did not get in for some reason. I know all this sounds ridiculous but I'm now at university I think I have a massive crush on him which must have existed them and it's sad because his friendliness likely stemmed from his extroversion and he just saw me as a classmate and here I am still thinking of him - a guy who I have not spoken to or texted in a year. Obviously, I'm not just thinking about him all the time because otherwise my medical degree will go nowhere but I still think of him with fondness.
I'm embarrassed for him to know that I feel this way, so I'm not reaching out to him.