When I look at a guy friend's photo, why do I instantly calm down?

I sometimes wonder whether I have feelings for this guy. Whenever I'm afraid, i look at his picture and i calm down or I call him to calm down when i have anxiety and I'm very happy when around him. I compare everyone to him and they all fall short. I get disappointed that the other people around me are as not as talkative as he is or funny as he is.

But, when we see each other, we keep on fighting or arguing. Then, i instantly hate him lol. I get really annoyed easily by him but when everything feels heavy, i go to him and instantly all feels lighter. He's an avoidant but when with me he mentioned once he can't help but care for me. Sometimes, he does disappear, I'm hurt a bit but I just think that everything happens for a reason and then he comes back lol. I sometimes wonder if it's just a really great great friendship or maybe I like him or both.

I fly to his city every 2 months because I'll miss him by then. I've been talking to others but I just seem to not be as invested.

I sometimes think we are meant to be and he also said that because we seem to really just disappear on people who are interested in us. So, i have an inkling we will end up together because of how crazy we are. We both cry and are vulnerable with each other and can be our 100% self with each other. We've already traveled with us only together

With others, i have to hold back my attitude but with him, he likes it. He even sees my great potential and worth. He mentioned I was special to him.

Why do i feel that with him, i can do anything and can calm down?

When I look at a guy friend's photo, why do I instantly calm down?
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