Is it bad that I really want to hurt this girl for telling me about my man? ?

I'm so sick of this girl contacting me telling me what my man is doing with her. And this sad part is I have to lie about talking to him because I know she'll start talking about me Online so people can laugh at me. Because one he's still not telling women we're a couple. Smh. I don't know how to really feel. I just lost my baby on top of it. I told her that if she keeps on messaging me I'll come into her house and hurt her in front of her kids. That's how stressed out I Am. As for my boyfriend, he's dating while I'm going through losing my baby. He just doesn't care. He's laid up with another woman at his house while I'm at my big house with my sister every day DRINKING my heart out... I think I'm losing weight again, my head hurts most times and I feel she's laughing at ME with him. Because she keep posting voice recordings of him and her talking, flirting with each other. I thought he was done with her. I didn't know he was actually still sleeping with that woman. I told everyone she was basically stalking him. Come to find out, she showed me screenshots of him calling her over 20xs, asking her for sex. Plus he told her I was bisexual. He gave me her address before and she posted a screenshot of him saying he NEVER gave me her address that basically I found out who she was on my own to get the blame off of HIM. Just so he can continue sleeping with her. I'm already mad he had a baby on me with that girl. The little baby LOOKS JUST LIKE HIM. 😪Is it bad that I want to hurt that girl? I feel she's laughing at me about him playing me and telling me to abort my other two babies and the one I was just pregnant with aborted itself. I'm so hurt. 😭😭People keep telling me I'm a fool to keep going back to him because he's making babies on me and leaves me to do everything on MY OWN. I have to sleep with him for him to even ANSWER my calls. Nor has he ever posted me on his social media

Is it bad that I really want to hurt this girl for telling me about my man? ?
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