Can agnostic who live a Christian life style go to heaven?

I life the church mainly because I was made fun of hardcore called a looser gay retard never really except I believe in the tenets of Christianity but I don’t want to go through the torture experience as a kid and teenager again (maybe it’s different now I’m 28 but I don't know my generation suuuuuuuuuuuuuucksssssssss)
Can agnostic who live a Christian life style go to heaven?
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