Should I get a job or just hang out?

I am on disability. I have a schizophrenia. I tried to get a job but wasn't successful. There's not many place for me to work in Canada. I studied fashion design. but I get a interview yesterday with fashion company. IT's not designing but cutting patterns. But I feel like I should use my time for something else. I am getting older and I feel like I should pray for spiritual gifts. I mean I can cure people if I get healing gift. I pray 30 minutes everyday but I should pray longer. I know some people who received spiritual gift. It's not a big deal. I know how to get it. but I really have to live clean if I maintain the gift and I am kind of scared about it. I don't know if I can live holy like that. what if I lose the gift?
Should I get a job or just hang out?
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