I sinned badly. I now regret it heaps. Will God forgive me and love me still?

[Anonymous]

I had sex before marriage

[Lara_Croft]

Jesus is redeemer. He says comes to me all you who labor and are heavy laden and I will give you rest Matthew 11 vs 28. There is no unpardonable sin apart from that of blaspheming against the Holy Spirit. Confess and ask for forgiveness in repentance Acts 3 vs 19 -20 Matthew 3 vs 8

[Anonymous]

Yeah so. Millions of others have done the same and God didn't give a shit.

[Al_Musafir]

Repent and never do it again. That's the best you can do.

[Asker]

What if a future husband doesn't want to marry me because of it?

[Al_Musafir]

Your sins aren't to be exposed. If it's so pressing and you're afraid of him finding it out by other means, then tell him that you will never do it again. You can't marry the one who you had sex with?

[Asker]

No I can't he was manipulating me and treating me really poorly. Do you think someone is capable of loving me unconditionally?

[Al_Musafir]

Unconditional love doesn't exist. Everyone has a condition. For example, conditions like religion, mutual respect, no betrayal etc. As for a situation like yours, many men will be willing to accept you and many won't.
You just have to be with who you desire and who desires you in return being aware of your past.

May I know what religion do you follow?

[Asker]

Islam. I hate myself for it. I don't want to live anymore

[Al_Musafir]

I'm a Muslim too. I read about it. The sins you do in private are to be kept private. اللہ has hidden them from other people's eyes for a reason. If they find out somehow by other means without you intending it, then leave it on his Qadar. You have suffered and hopefully realised why everything is haram about relationships and everything that follows. Become the best Muslimah you can be and leave the rest on اللہ. All this dating and free mixing isn't worth it let alone committing fornication.
If you're from the west, society might be easy on you, even Muslim society considering many are reverts there.
As for South Asian Muslim societies, it might be a bit difficult but not impossible nevertheless. Just don't get involved in a haram relationship and انشاءاللہ you'll be blessed with a righteous husband.

[Asker]

This made me cry. Thank you and may Allah bless you. I live in a western society and got caught up in it all. I want to cover my sins but I wasn't sure if I am to tell future husband or keep it from him. There is a lot of conflicting things on the internet. I sincerely repent it and I hope Alla SWT will forgive me for my sins. Thank you so much.

[Asker]

Allah*

[Al_Musafir]

Among many sins including idolatry, shirk, polytheism, listening to music etc which you sincerely repent and leave in the past, there's also the sin of fornication. If اللہ chooses to hide it, don't reveal it. Otherwise your husband won't be able to see you the same way ever again. It takes a lot of courage for a protective Muslim man with knowledge to accept such things but اللہ willing, anything can happen.

You're welcome.

[shortster]

You must first forgive yourself.

[Asker]

How? It's so hard. I'm crying every night going into deep depression and suicidal thoughts. I don't know what to do

[shortster]

Realize that we are all sinners and that God forgives us anyways. His forgiveness is guaranteed; we only need to accept it.

[Asker]

I hope so.