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I came so close to being a girl's first love and first everything.

Back in 2020, I was in a coding forum and met this devout Catholic girl who was homeschooled. She was 17 at the time, almost 18. I remember the very first conversation we had till this day. We really hit it off.

She later disclosed she never had a boyfriend or a first love. She had a crush on a guy but she was never close to him. In fact, she never had a male friend before she met me.

We talked every day and formed an online thing. I remember us talking about getting married at one point, where we would go on our honeymoon, and how we would name our kids. I was anticipating on marrying her.

A week after her 18th birthday, I went to go see her. She rejected me upon meeting in person. I was crushed beyond words.

Fast forwarding, she recently married this guy a few months ago who got to be her first everything. I still have nightmares about it. I had to be hospitalized because it was so traumatizing to me.

My biggest fear is not being able to find another woman like Rachel was when we first met. I fear that I will not find another girl that has never had her first love.

I am 27, almost 28, and I never had a real girlfriend. I am a frontend software engineer that makes good money. I work remote from home, so I spend a lot of my time alone.

I am seeking a woman that has the same inexperience as I am. I am wanting a woman that has never had a boyfriend or a close romantic bond with a guy before, especially from her youth. I want me and a woman to be each other's first loves.

I came very close one time to getting that. Two years ago, I met this girl online. We hit it off and talked every day. She never had a boyfriend or even a male friend before she met me. She was also a virgin, a devout Catholic, and homeschooled with 6 other younger siblings. Sadly, shortly after her 18th birthday, she rejected me upon meeting in person. She eventually met another guy who she married and got to be her first everything. I am still devistated about it till this day. I want to find another woman like her when we first met.

I am starting to think I may have to look for a wife abroad, like over in Asia like Vietnam or Thailand to find what I am looking for.