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I am p1 he is p2

2 What is wrong? 😐

1 I guess I feel weird bc I took something that was honest and worried about the implications, even tho I AM usually the one who hates it when People read into stuff and I like it when people are honest so I was bothered by my reaction.

2 I forgive you 

(So I laughed but then I was still concerned he’d think I thought it was significant for some other reason so I re explained I was just caught off guard.)

2 I understand. We can start Over & just be clear.

(So then I was silent)

2 Soooo what are you thinking?

1 I don't know 🤷🏻‍♀️

2 You don’t know what you are thinking?

1 I don't know what to say 🤷🏻‍♀️

2 what do you want to say

1 I don't know 😂

2 Where does this leave us?🙂

1 I don't know

2 Can you say something other than “idk” —even if you need a few minutes 😆

(So I thought. Which was awkward bc it’s like he’s waiting so I turned around not facing him and thought)

( after I thought)

1 So… I like you, somewhat. 🧐

2 Thank you 😜 uhh sorry you are supposed to be talking 🤫

(So I continued…)

🤔 So I like you in some kind of way, and I _think_ I’d like to get to know you better, but I’m not ready to “date” and I take a LOOOONG time to adjust. It’s been an issue in the past. It isn’t personal it’s just how I am. If I do not want to hang out all it’s bc of how much time I need to decompress it’s not necessarily bc I do not like someone.

2 Can I ask a question?

1 OK but I’m not finished ☝🏼

2 Noted 🤓 Do I stresses you out?

1 No. that’s why I said “it’s not personal”

2 Oh yeah no I know, I know I heard you.

But I’m wondering other than that. Do I _personally_ stress you out.. bc i was kind of shocked at how quiet you were the last time we spent time together, compared to when we used to talk at the library.

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I've haven't spoken to her since Dec 2021. She's trying to reach me but I'm still too hurt. I consider what she did unexcusable. I'm having a hard time forgiving.

She has always gotten upset for trivial things, blown things out of proportion (ex: if you were to tell her that she dances in a unique way, she starts crying, thinking you hate her and refuses to talk to you) and goes into the ''not talking to you for a week or so'' if someone doesn't apologizes first, even if it wasn't your fault at all. She likely has borderline personality disorder; I don't know.

Flashback to last year:

Well her pride, getting upset with me for something stupid and refusing to talk to me... made her purposely miss my special day. All my family members (my father and everyone else) and friends were there, everyone but her. I needed her to be present on the most important day of my life. By not showing up, it's like she refused me, she rejected me. For me, I felt it a rejection of the highest level ever, as way ''I don't love nor care about you'' at all. I don't even believe in her previous ''I love you'' words anymore. I'm still hurt. Is my anger justified?