Why am I such a shitty person?

[Anonymous]

I work in a hospital and I accessed my medical records along with my families. And I got a hipaa violation. Im so stupid.

Do I have low IQ? AM I that dumb? I'm a CNA.

Why would I do this.. they gave me a slap on the wrist but I'm worthless.

I'm so dumb, I can't believe this. I took pride in my job... now I can't because I did this. my supervisor says everyone loves working with me. Do I just forgive myself and move on?

I don't deserve to be happy. I was already struggling with my self esteem, depression and this just made it so much worse. I feel awful

i did go through patients on other floors. on accident, they didn't catch it though. but what if they do and I get fired? they could charge me and take me to court. I'm 25, and my life is ruined. I am having depression. this isn't leaving my mind, I feel like shit. I can't eat, haven't been drinking anything cause I don't deserve it.

Idon't deserve to have nice comments and the ones on reddit made me feel like I murdered someone saying I should be sued and been fired.

Do I forgive myself and move on? Maybe find a different job? Or do I stay at my current one and wait it out. See what happens?

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1 y

I don't expect sympathy at all what I did was awful and shitty.
I just need advice on to move on. I did a horrible thing.

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1 y

I haven't been able to eat, been sleeping all day. Which is unlike me. I can't stop thinking about it. I feel like my life is over.

[Fireguy17]

If it was a mistake, HIPPA rules can be a SOB to follow then get over it and move on.
If you did it on purpose then get over it and never do it again.
If for some strange reason you still fine the need to violate the rules, time to move on to a different job.

[jshm2]

You're just nosey and undisciplined, is all.

Do work, at work, have hobbies and interests outside it.

Get some better friends while you're at it.

[Asker]

You're right. I've just been worrying excessively over this.