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https://smartasset.com/mortgage/the-best-places-to-be-a-liberal-and-the-best-places-to-be-a-conservative

https://www.amcharts.com/visited_states/

I asked this before, but I got skewed answers and wasn't specific enough. So this time, I'm making it a poll.

Please pick the state that is the best when it comes to not being woke and run by Liberal lunatics teaching LGBT s e x uality to second graders (California, New York, Illinois, Washington, Minnesota, etc), nor Conservatively authoritarian with things such as banning abortion, forcing people to be Christian, etc. (Texas, South Dakota, Missouri, Arkansas, etc.)

Using elimination, Maryland, Arizona, and Georgia seem like the worst possible places to live in and have the "worst of both worlds." And then you have California, the worst, most insane state ever. What place are the opposite of those?

No, I don't want to hear any debates on why you think the left or right is "better." I just want what you think is the most apolitical state. I want the US state that is the most balanced/"purple" and doesn't have any of the negative crap from either side, thanks.

I don't know if I can take anymore. I cook; I clean; I work cybersecurity; I bodybuild; and the worst part of it all has been her. But. The best part of it all has also been her.

I am angry. She consistently says she'll help me out around the house, but words are just words, and she rarely if ever follows through.

Her gifts to me are only things she wants. She got me steak knives for my birthday, because she wanted new steak knives. She mocked me feeling sad over the death of my mother, 7 months into the relationship. Fought with me at my graduation. Every important moment of my life has been sundered by her.

Even her sister has warned me that she just gaslights constantly.

But, I get angry at her, too, insult her, mock her, raise my voice when we fight. And that's relationships, right? I have many faults, too, so is it fair of me to judge hers and say I can't bear them?

She also taught me so many things and we've shared so many wonderful moments together.

I have a great career, great body, and I'm working harder and harder on myself to become a better version of me, spiritually, mentally, physically. Everything. But she uses that against me and exploits my willingness to olive branch. She exploits my willingness to sit down and talk about what I'm doing wrong, never admitting to anything, and making the whole relationship a defect in me that I must always make up for but never can fully. My faults are mine, and also her faults are also mine. It's such a heavy burden.

But. I'm looking at these pictures and videos of our happy moments. And I can't help but think that I am thinking about throwing away 3 years of blood sweat and tears. Not to mention I'm 1,100 miles from my home now, with no friends here, and only her, so I'm utterly alone aside from the fact that we still live together.

Thankfully I make enough money now to pay double rent for a couple months if I decide to break the lease.

Anyway. Is there ever hope with a covert narcissist?