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I didn't want to ask about this becouse im a bit ashamed of it, i just scared it with some people in DM's but i want some opinions on this.

I found out some messages of my ex with other girls i didn't know. They were talking about going to date, kissing and some dirty talks. He even went out with some of them.

I was mad so i confronted him but his reaction got me even more furious. He told its none if my business and he can do whatever he want and then even told me im a whore becouse i also meet other guys (he was talking about some guys i know from gym or bjj club but i never meet with them outside of the gym/club).

I got furious and pushed him to the wall, he pushed me back and then i hit him in the face. He fell down and i have him some more beating before leaving him in the appartment.

I know i shouldn't have done this, but is it at least understandable?

I broke up with my ex because my ex-boyfriend kept forgetting something that I said many times and kept forgetting his promise. (He explains that he keeps forgetting stuff because he was high on weed.) Because he forgot about it, he said I like to exaggerate stuff and forced me to apologize instead. I feel gaslighted, so we fight. We split after the same thing kept happening. So now he comes back, says he is a new man, and promises to be better. Should I consider reconciliation?