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“Jonathan Ross may be a misogynist, intoxicated by the authority imbued upon him, and a reckless hothead, but here's a behaviorist's view on the single thing that made him lose control and set him off to shoot Renee Good three times in the face. Believe it or not, it was her telling him it's OK, she wasn't mad at him and then turning the wheel to leave. That was her being in control, it was a statement about HER feelings, with HER as the subject, and driving away would have made that THE LAST WORD. He couldn't handle that. To him, she was slighting his manhood by making his feelings subordinate, effectively saying she wasn't afraid, and this caused his innate hatred for women to bubble up and overtake him. Shooting her was his way of saying - who has the last word now?” - The Shallow State on X - x.com/.../2010190073476853950?s=46

I keep thinking about this.

My ex spent a lot of time and energy getting me to like her which I resisted at first. But then I fell for her and I showed her love in the ways I did like planning out thought out dates for her, getting her things which I thought she’d like whenever I saw anything on trips away and planning special things for her birthday. After a while, she occasionally dropped hints that she wanted me to show love by telling her I like her and that I think about her and she wants more of my attention and she sighed when I did things I don’t like (like go on my phone sometimes when I was with her) but she never said anything about thinking about ending the relationship or that it was affecting her a lot. Then she went away for a couple of weeks then she went silent then when I messaged, she was saying things like we’ll find a time to get together. Then she said she wanted a chat. I asked if everything’s ok and she said yeah, just wants to catch up. Then she seemed normal and had a chat with me about unrelated things then after some time out of nowhere towards the end of our catchup she said she’s starting to feel we’ve become more like friends recently and that she’d been thinking that for about a month. She said she’d discussed it with friends who said if she feels that way after a year it might be time to leave then she said she doesn’t see a future together but genuinely wants to stay friends. I had an inkling this was the case when she stopped messaging during and after her trip. 6 weeks on she keeps messaging me even if my responses are brief.

but I still feel confused, betrayed, angry and sad. And I don’t know how I should feel.