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OBS! this will get a lot of hate from the feminists... Many people will say my ex was toxic. And I get why. But he protected me to the point he rather have me hate him and I'm safe than me being in danger and happy. Thinking back evan moments where I wanted to punch him in his face I realized he loved me.

Wether it was me not being allowed to walk out alone in the dark at night or me running away from home after arguing with my parents.. he would tell me to turn around to go home or he will throw me over his shoulder and take me home himself.

Or if I was hysterically crying he would pinch me down and hold me still until I calm down not leaving me evan though that's all I wanted. Cause he knew I would hurt myself if he did.

If I ever was in danger I would call him and he would come meet me up. Like one time a man was following me and I called him and he came running down. Or yesterday on my way home from work a crazy woman was following me and I called him and he stopped his gym work out and told me exacly what to do...(we are still friends).

There are more stuff he has done and is doing that I could name here that are annoying but I know he cares..

He sure can be an ASSHOLE in his own way but I'm not sure I would be here today if it wasen't for him. But am not ready to give him that ego boost...😣

Anyways I'm wondering if women would want a man to protect them like this evan when they don't want it? And would men do it?

I realize I do in the long run.

Even with no actual experience I still believe I fall under this category, I wonder if I need to manifest the law of attraction or something even though I do think that’s bs.

You know when you have a gut feeling? I’ve been on and off the dating apps for years, it’s come to the point where I’m not as interested & I swipe on matches/reply to msgs every few days. I’ve never had a real relationship, I saw someone for a few months maybe 5 years ago & something told me after I saw him that’d I’d be single for a long time. With him it felt like settling & I refuse to ever be with someone that made me feel like that again.

I had to use dating apps bc I’m not very friendly & I don’t get approached in person. I’m told I’m cute/attractive & I will say I have a very low sex drive (haven’t masturbated or had sex in 5 years). I don’t think this is a huge deal considering this isn’t something that will be an issue that early on, a guy can’t just look at my profile/see me in person & know that right off the bat.

I get matches (never been the issue) but it’s always: ghosting, fizzling out, lack of interest (can go both ways), feelings not reciprocated, just not a good match & some guys are just crazy. I just always have a gnawing feeling like guys aren’t attracted to me, I’d get told once in a while that some guy looked at me/found me cute but they never do anything about it. And I don’t either hence why I’m posting this

TLDR: based off the description, is this something that’s unlucky in love?