Search Results: make up or no make up

I am 30 and flat out broke. I don't own a home. The only true assets I possess is a sedan and an RV. I live in an apartment, and I will have to move back to my parents' home once my lease ends.

I am newly engaged and already starting off on a bad foot. I didn't get my first actual girlfriend until age 29, the woman I am now engaged to. I have been a software developer on and off for the past 4 years now. Sadly, my industry has been decimated largely due to the Xiden regime. To make matters worse, his regime started the process of terminating my social security benefits and Medicare his last 3 months in office, despite being unemployed since mid-July last year.

I didn't have the greatest past. I have a stalking conviction from 9 years ago. I ended up losing my EMT license in 2019 because of that. I have been in and out of hospitals for severe mental illness, and I was caught up in a pred sting 3 years ago. No charges or convictions stemmed from that, but there were collateral damages for sure.

Anyways, I am talented and highly skilled and poor as dirt.

I thought the 30s were supposed to be a time when a man is financially sound and successful in his career.

I would suggest that it is. Years ago, Before i met my wife, I believe i was 26 at the time, was in love with a woman who i wanted to marry, We had been together for two years at the time. We had talked repeatedly about spending our lives together and getting married, even having children. So I set up a romantic outing with all of her favorite things, Got down on my knee and proposed to her. She turned me down. I got up, I said nothing, I walked away. Leaving her where she was. I think she had to walk home. She was pissed at me, She called me, and i politely explained to her that i was done with her, that if she didn't want marriage, i was not going to waste my time with her any more. I told her that she was essentially dead to me, and that her stuff would be in a box on my front porch (she lived with me about 50% of the time). As of now, i am 41 and she is 38. She is still single, No children, No family, Alone. From what her friends told me about her situation, she also attempted suicide a few times and spent time in and out of the hospital. This is the life she condemned her self to. I have ZERO sympathy for her.

My opinion is this, If the man proposes, does everything right, makes an effort, And she says no, Any further association is a waste of time, and she becomes unworthy of marriage.