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Try to leave feelings aside and think about your own personal life. Have things gotten better or worse for you?

Overall things have gotten much more difficult in my own life. Ever since Biden took over I’ve had the following happen:

• Inflation has devastated my real earnings. I have only gotten two tiny 2% raises at my company in the last 3 years. However like everybody my own expenses have skyrocketed. I am not wealthy but I am trying to be upper middle class. The Biden administrations policies have now knocked me down a peg or two where everything is much more of a struggle. I have much less savings
• I work in the tech sector and there has been a ton of paranoia and stress. The direct company I work for is actually outperforming expectations. However the conglomerate who acquired us is suffering and pushing undeserved suffering on us as a result (no raises, less benefits, etc.). This is the hardest I’ve worked in 7 years with zero appreciation.
• Although I work 100% remote I was forced to vaccinate two years ago. I was on the fence about this initially however as a condition of employment I was left no choice. This was direct Biden mandate and was authoritarian. The fact I had no choice really pissed me off.
• Homeless and crime has skyrocketed in my home state (which has gone far left in the last few years). Fortunately I live in a nice and overall safe neighborhood. However the crap is starting to make out to where I live. I see more and more sketchy people at the grocery stores and there has been in increasing reports of crime. Now I know that’s local not federal politics. But still the “woke” attitude has infiltrated my state and the Biden administration propagated this crap.
• I was recently forced to take a DEI course at my job online. This was mandated company wide. For the most part I don’t care. But they got deep in the “non binary/trans” section. The “lesson” made up a definition that “gender is socially created” which I believe is complete bullshit.

I fell in love with her instantly but I never had the courage to make a move so we went to friends. I could never risk losing her from my life because I think she is the most amazing woman, and she inspires me to be better. I left hints so she knows I have feelings for her without telling her directly. We've talked about us and she has suggested a few times that we could not be together. But then she would confuse me by doing something incredibly caring or romantic. I am in a loop of being in the friendzone and trying to accept it, followed by an act which gave me hope of more, to her suggesting we would never work, and back to the friendzone.

We've supported each other so much. She has helped me develop personally, and also deal with the death of someone close to me. And in turn, she has had a tough year personally and professionally so I have supported her and now she's doing better

For the past year, we have had a long call at least once a week. We have been available for each other always. Last week, I called her and for the first time, she never answered or called/text back. We sent each other a couple of texts this week, but I initiated them all. I called her today to no answer, but she text later to just say she was with her friends. I asked her to call me when she was done, but she hasn't.

I feel like she has progressively become more distant from me for a while now. We used to talk all day, every day. Now I'm lucky if she sends me a text 1st.

I've done my best to accept we will never be more. I have tried to do what a friend does; support, care, and be there for her unconditionally.
With her becoming more distant, is it time for me to stop trying, and let her go? Should I not contact her again until she reaches out to me first?
It's tough, she is the first woman I have ever felt love for, despite us never being together. I'm sure she has had feelings for me too but she has been unwilling to compromise on her perfect image of a partner.