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I keep thinking about this.

My ex spent a lot of time and energy getting me to like her which I resisted at first. But then I fell for her and I showed her love in the ways I did like planning out thought out dates for her, getting her things which I thought she’d like whenever I saw anything on trips away and planning special things for her birthday. After a while, she occasionally dropped hints that she wanted me to show love by telling her I like her and that I think about her and she wants more of my attention and she sighed when I did things I don’t like (like go on my phone sometimes when I was with her) but she never said anything about thinking about ending the relationship or that it was affecting her a lot. Then she went away for a couple of weeks then she went silent then when I messaged, she was saying things like we’ll find a time to get together. Then she said she wanted a chat. I asked if everything’s ok and she said yeah, just wants to catch up. Then she seemed normal and had a chat with me about unrelated things then after some time out of nowhere towards the end of our catchup she said she’s starting to feel we’ve become more like friends recently and that she’d been thinking that for about a month. She said she’d discussed it with friends who said if she feels that way after a year it might be time to leave then she said she doesn’t see a future together but genuinely wants to stay friends. I had an inkling this was the case when she stopped messaging during and after her trip. 6 weeks on she keeps messaging me even if my responses are brief.

but I still feel confused, betrayed, angry and sad. And I don’t know how I should feel.

I happen to take this matter personally because of what happened to me.

When I was 20, I met this 16 year old girl online on an adult dating app. We really hit it off, and we began conversing for a series of months. We both researched the age of consent in her state, and found that it was 16. I drove to meet her, and we had a date. Things got intense later, and we ended up having sex. It ended up only being a weekend fling because she didn't want to pursue a romantic relationship with me. I was heartbroken. We had a dispute weeks later, and she never wanted to speak to me again.

7 months later while at my college dorm, I made an idiotic decision to drive back to her state to apologize and win her heart again. I was met at the door by her father, who was unhappy to see me to say the least. I shook his hand and agreed to cut complete contact. As I went back to my hotel, the police knocked on my door and arrested me. Fast forwarding, I was sentenced to 3 years supervised probation. The collateral damages were just as bad if not worse, as I lost my EMT license and my career.

The reason why I bring this up is because if this were to happen to someone who was elite, had money, or had high influential status, they would have likely just received a slap on the wrist or not have been touched at all by the law.

Instead, an average everyday person, let alone a young 20/21 year old trying to pursue love at that time, had his entire reputation and livelihood destroyed.

These elitist bastards flew 14 year old girls on an island, passed them around as casual sex dolls, and they get away with it completely unscathed. It's sick.

Now that I am 31 and married, I look back in hindsight with regret and sadness I became so desperate. I was young and dumb. But I am even more angry at the devastation it caused for so many years when, meanwhile, elitists just continue to thrive and get away with high-profile crimes.