I can't do anything right, how do I tell my girlfriend?

[Anonymous]

I have an online girlfriend, and she's very sweet with me. But the problem is, well, everything. I've been in a depression for the past 6 years, I've failed at everything I've ever tried in my life, and I can't do anything right. It's gotten so bad that I've given up on trying, anymore. I've resigned myself to staying in bed, drinking until I throw up and pass out, then repeating the process when I wake up.

I deliver food for a few hours, once I run out of alcohol, then immediately get more once I've made enough money. She knows I'm struggling with alcohol, but she doesn't know how much I've had. For the past 2 months, I've been consuming alcohol every day, I never consume any less than 10 standard drinks each day, and it's quite common for me to drink more than 20 standard drinks each day.

Last night, I drank 17 standard drinks worth of alcohol. But here's the thing, I can't even get drunk, properly. Because at no point last night, did I feel the giddy feeling of being drunk, I just fell asleep and woke up trembling and twitching.

I don't enjoy anything, and I have no passions or interests, everything is painful to me, and I can't even summon the energy to shower.

She deserves so much better than me, but I don't know how to tell her. I know that once I tell her that nobody believes in me for good reason, she'll reply that she does, but then I'll have to tell her what an insane fool she must be for thinking, even for a second, that I'll ever be able to become anything more than a worthless drunk who can't do a single thing right.

How do I tell her?

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I've decided that I'm going to stay with her, and give life a few more tries

[Anonymous]

Aw honey, that feeling is the worst. Here's the thing: you probably do way more right than you think. Instead of focusing on the negatives, try talking to your girlfriend about how you've been feeling. Maybe specific examples would help? You could say something like, "Lately I've been feeling down on myself because [give a specific example]. Can we talk about it?" Open communication is key in any relationship!

[Asker]

So do you think I should make her leave me, or no?

[Asker]

And I don't, I can't do anything right, I can't even get drunk properly

[Taniisokay]

Indeed sucks to be in your place. Seek out professional help. You are throwing away your life and health. I don't know what to tell you I am never drink alcohol nor touch nor gone to where they sell it because I am Muslim and I grow up as Muslim which is easy for me. Seek out professional help. Focus on yourself first. You are too young for these bullshit.

[Asker]

There's no help out there for me, I'm a lost cause, and everybody knows it

[Taniisokay]

It's not late to change and I don't give a fuck about people thinks about you. It's your life not theirs. You choose who you wanna be.

[Taniisokay]

Get some people that's doesn't drink alcohol, have sex, do drugs, etc like muslims like me.

Change who you surrender with. I believe you have a nearby mosque where muslims prays, go there and met some new people. If you can go to bars then mosqe will be no big deal for you.

[Asker]

I don't subscribe to that religion, and I'm certain that if any church knew how much I've been drinking, they'd tell me to leave

[Taniisokay]

You will have another experience with Muslims in mosque. I am not telling to become a muslim but get some muslims friends.

[Asker]

That still doesn't answer my question, how do I tell my girlfriend that she needs to leave me and find someone better?

[Taniisokay]

She will leave if she smart one.

[Asker]

She is smart, but we love eachother

[Taniisokay]

She is dumb not smart. Sorry but I gotta be honest. If I was her you wouldn't notice me leaving so quick. Wish you best life. May Allah guide me and you to his will. Life is too short to worship alcohol. Bless your mind.

[Asker]

No offense, but if you'd up and leave that easily, then loyalty must not be very important to you.

Anyway, what do you think your insightful friends can say that may make me a little less hopeless than I am?

[Taniisokay]

Not loyalty stuff. If you aren't willing to help yourself then I am out. It's too much to deal with someone that drinks alcohol without seeking treatment and doing something to better themselves. I believe you need to change who you hangout with. That's all changed. I never drink alcohol and nor have sexual relationships. I was wasting my time with cornsites. I tried to make new circles of friends and that helped me a lot!!. My new friends are always praying all their 5 times a day, doing charity work, having careers on them, etc. I am picked up those habits because I tried to spend time with them and they were nice and I told them first time " hey, I need new friends, can we be friends? I wanna hangout with ya so remember me, my name is tani" they live in next neighborhood. I LOVE THEM ❤ MAY ALLAH BLESS MY CIRCLE OF FRIENDS. Try make friends with Muslims. Just have new friends if circle and help yourself out for god's sake.

[Anonymous]

You need to learn to be your own best friend. Nobody else matters ultimately. And for that, you need help. Help with the drinking and with your life attitude. Only you can fix you but maybe others can help show you how.

[jahaims]

A relationship is pointless if you are this big of a mess

[Asker]

You think I haven't realized that?

[jahaims]

You obviously haven't if you have a girlfriend.

[Asker]

And I'm trying to fix that problem by telling her how bad I am

[The_Sexpert]

Seek help brother, seek professional help

[Asker]

The only person who can help me is God, but I doubt he will because just like my family is disappointed in me, he's no doubt 10× more angry at me than they are, since he's the only one besides me who knows how much I've been drinking

[The_Sexpert]

I'm a former alcoholic, there's always a way out , you'll be glad all this is over
First what you need is some help to stop or at least cut down your drinking

[Asker]

Well, I have been cutting down over the past few days.

Although I had a setback and bought a 1.75 liter bottle of whiskey. I drank about 100ml of it, but then my mom came in and was screaming at me for it, out of anger, I told her to follow me to the bathroom.

I grabbed the bottle and told her to watch, I then poured the entire bottle into the toilet and flushed it.

Since then, I've been buying two 375ml bottles of alcohol, instead of the usual two 1 liter bottles that I finish over the course of 2-3 days

[The_Sexpert]

That's an unbelievable type of improvement, you might not understand how big of a change that is
It's a coincidence that it was similar in my case..
My mom found my bottle of Johnnie Walker and she started crying.. that's when I started cutting down
If you just keep progressing and cutting down little by little , one day you'll get your freedom from all this drinking... life will be so good again... all the efforts would be worth it
I will pray for you brother.. you'll have a great life with her by your side