What is depression like for you?

[Anonymous]

If you have depression, how would you describe it?

Sometimes I feel it wash over me and nothing brings me joy. I feel like there's no point to anything. Why eat? Why bother?
I find it difficult to even partake in any leisurely activities. I want to jump out of my skin. I feel alone and restless.
I feel like I'm teetering at the head of a ion sometimes, like I'm ok but on the verge of this awful despair.

I haven't had these feelings until recent years. I think because I was in a bad marriage (totally moved on, btw) for so long kept my focus off. When I'm at work during the week I'm on autopilot. But when I have the weekend, I never can enjoy it or relax. I am totally restless and unsatisfied with life, just want to give up.

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Thanks in advance for replies. Was just skimming my question. Autocorrect- teetering at the head of a pin. It's like I can feel quite vividly that my mental state could go in either direction.

[bubbiexo]

Mostly I feel completely numb and barely able to move as I have no motivation to do so. My head weighs 1 million pounds and I can't be bothered to lift, nor can I speak any words because they are all too heavy. The world feels like nothing and way too much at the same time. This is extremely dry and I feel no pain, fear, sadness, or worry. My bed feels like it could swallow me whole and I wouldn't notice. Nothing matters and I don't care what happens to my job or anything else.

Or it will be extreme pain and a heavy feeling in my chest. Constant state of hopelessness, weeping, waves of anxiety and despair. I lash out and want to pick fights- just to feel anger instead of soul-crushing sadness.

[bubbiexo]

I don't feel those ways very often as I have found a good balance for myself in the last two years... I can say I'm genuinely happy. But I've struggled with depression since I was 10 or 11 and have visited those feelings many times.

[Anonymous]

I feel upset and angry sometimes that i have to be a part of this world, wish i were never born. i dont want to go out or even leave my bedroom, or eat or shower. i dont want to see anyone, talk, text or have anything to do with anyone. i feel like i would rather be dead than feel what i feel and after a while i start to go numb and feel nothing.

[tsd8124]

i have felt that way as well and i attempted suicide twice and i use to cut... but i got help and started seeing a psychologist and really found out what was causing my depression and worked it out and now im fine. but sometimes i still get depressed out of know where and just think like why the hell am i here... but maybe you just need to be around friends who care about you and just go have fun.. try to enjoy life.

[SüßeJäger]

I feel exactly like you when depressed. I was in a terrible marriage too for the last 3 years and between that and some other things together, it broke me and I had a nervous breakdown. Don't give up. There are many opportunities to be happy, you are young like me still. There is also help out there too. Go to a doctor and tell them what's going on. I hate medicines but there are some good ones that really help.

[TheNewClassic]

No motivation

Everything is pointless

No joy

You try to be happy and tell yourself dont think too much but it just won't work

You blame yourself for everything

Sleep way too much

Dont wanna be around people

Sometimes you have no emotions at all, you're numb

And so much more

[Blacklonewolf]

For me most people that don't know me will think I'm fine. But for the people that do know me well know the signs to look for like I don't eat if I can help it, I don't sleep, I stay away from people even mmore than I normally do, and I will walk for a very long time and I'll stop for nothing.

[Anonymous]

For me I OFTEN feel hopeless, helpless, worthless and like anything I do is pointless like why bother if there is a slight enjoyable moment in my life I remind myself that it will end in a matter of time and I don't allow myself to fully enjoy that moment because I remind myself that it will end while depression will stay. That's how I feel everyday but I am trying to get better as for the how to get better its a mystery to me =/

[misscocobutter]

Feel similar to you. For me it's this deep hollow empty feeling inside my chest. I feel stuck in a life that I didn't expect, in situations that have no easy fixes or easy ways out. I feel alone, unloved and sad

[Anonymous]

Its like standing in the ocean. You're always a little uncomfortable, never really happy, but you try to stay afloat. Then every once in a while a wave crashes over you and you're just miserable for a few weeks, and after so many waves you get tired of fighting it and let it try to take you under.

[Sex_Panther]

Let's see. When I'm depressed I actually function well but I become repetitive or monotonous. I like it sort of because time flies but I also end up in treacherous sinkholes like GaG.

[Anonymous]

It's like I'm cold and want something to warm me up, but I'm just trapped in a cold, dark box and I can't get out but I bang on the walls and no one hears me screaming for warmth.

[nottheaveragered]

I dont like to do things that usually give me joy and I have this dull ache around my whole body.

[findingdreamland]

Looking into sun, seeing only darkness.

[mario1321]

Deep dark hopeless, nonsense

[Anonymous]

Sucidal thoughts