Hello everyone,
I hope you have had a great weekend so far :). I want to share you my very first love story at the age of 21 when I was passionate about something and then let it loose for a short amount of time. All I can tell is that love is more meaningful than money. For me at least. Anyways, it was a Wednesday evening where I had been training chest and biceps at the gym. So I saw this one cute girl at the leg press machine who was lifting many weights. I asked if she needed a spot.
She was answering me with her cute voice: ''oh I am doing fine thanks :)''.
So I went back to my set. later on I felt something about her. she was giving me positive/good vibes so that it made me want to talk to her more.
I've reached the top floor and bumped to her again and she saw me. we were giving us smiles. After my set, I asked for her number.
She was saying: ,,if you are not a Fkboy, then yes''. (she gave it).
:O :O :O. you know? Back then, I have had no any idea what that word meant... wasn't even interested to know the meaning. Until I know it up today. I felt bad for her.
NOTE: IF YOU ARE WONDERING HOW THINGS MOVED SO QUICKLY BETWEEN US IS BECAUSE I HAVE SKIPPED A LOT OF PARTS TO TELL. OTHERWISE YOU CAN ASK SOME QUESTIONS ABOUT IT. THERE WAS JUST WAY TOO MUCH.
Day by Day, I have felt like interacting with her more and more. Her personality was amazing. She was giving me good morning messages everyday too.
and it was one day, I thought about her literally 24 hours and when I went to bed... I'd fell asleep like in 3 hours because my mind was on the run. Anyone who fell in love deeply would know this feeling. We were texting from 2 pm till like 3 am. We have exchanged so much personal information.
I couldn't even train properly because I was always texting/thinking of her. Up to this day, I still remember the exact date when I met her at the gym and when I've texted her the entire day!! It was a Wednesday, April 14th/16th 2017 at the gym and 2 weeks after, a Tuesday.
I'd phantasize love scenarios with us together doing stuff and how she's showering me with love and affection <3
So... there I was... I couldn't get what I have actually expected... a date and a loving relationship. She couldn't reciprocate because of her abusive ex bad boy boyfriend. Deep inside, she liked me. She was enjoying talking to me.
As stupid and soo dumb as I was!!! I still texted her and didn't let go. I became more miserable day by day because it was going nowhere!! ... So imagine it was like an uphill going downwards. My attitude to her has changed fron extremely crushing/loving to super duper resentful... then one day, we'd argue a lot. We've discussed to the very end. Fighting back and forth. She insulted me and I insulted her back.
She was like: "I can't tell if you actually are the guy I was speaking to at the gym or with 5000 inside your body. You act like a whimp. Seek a psychiatrist" That hurt me a lot back then when I thought how much I loved her.
I was like: "Do you have the ability to understand others emotions? Apparently not. What you have inside your head is your dumb @ss ex boyfriend". BEFORE THIS INCIDENT DO YOU KNOW WHAT SHE SAID AFTER WE HAVE TALKED ABOUT THE F-BOY STUFF? I ASKED HER: "though you hate those type of guys... would you want to switch sides eventually one day?"... so she said: "Yes why not. Haha"
At age 21 when I was deeply in love when she couldn't reciprocate. I know and I am aware that there are worse stories or similar or more meaningful. Surely, I respect all of those.
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