I was with this ex for almost 4 years, on and off toward the last couple of years because of us drifting apart. I wanted someone new because we were stuck in a vicious rut and after a while we stopped talking all together.
Now recently, I started dreaming about him and friends kept telling me they see him around with his girlfriend. At first I ignored my feelings but it became persistent. I realized that even though I'd had other bf's since him, I wasn't over him and hadn't found love even close to his so I wanted him back and was completely selfish.
I went to his house last night and let him convince me that what we were doing was right. I knew going in how terrible I'd feel yet I did it anyway. I feel horrible for the girlfriend and I hate myself now. I feel like I ruined their relationship and I don't deserve to be loved the way I once was or to have a healthy relationship for myself. I can't sleep because of the guilt and fear I've brought upon myself.
What should I do? Should I talk to my ex anymore? My feelings for him are legit, but I honestly don't know if I want to be with him right now. Does someone like me even deserve love? If so, how do I find redemption? Please be honest, I just want to be a good person, I just don't know why I've been so evil :(
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still having feelings for your ex=not wrong, it happens (all in how you handle these feelings though)
having sex with a guy who is with another=wrong on both of your parts, he's cheating and you didn't handle your feelings for him correctly
all together that's two rights for you and one wrong for you. though I would say it was still wrong of you to do this, I understand where ur coming from. what you should do. avoid ur ex as much as possible. its the only way to get over him..the only way you can get back with him is if he she breaks up with him.
hope this helps