I decided to go no contact and thought I was moving on until it hit me that I still love him and miss him, so I reached out. We've been texting a lot but it has been very platonic and mostly just us catching up. I haven't mentioned wanting to get back together or gotten in my feelings but I have tried hinting that he should visit me, but he either just can't take a hint or doesn't want to, I don't know.
I feel in a good spot in that he is interested in talking to me, but I'm so scared to tell him I want to reconcile because I'm scared he'll say no. I feel like he needs to be the one to set up a date and say he wants to get back together because he's the one who ended it. I just know if he visited me, he would want to get back together, but I don't know how to convince him to visit in the right way. I feel like new years would be the perfect time but don't know how to leverage the plan. Any ideas?