The guy was so enthusiastic, ready to start a beautiful relation with me, to compromise intensely.
I was dealing with a past traumatic relationship. I was honest with him but maybe it was hard to grasp my emotional state meanwhile I was very high on life.
We staid 4 months together, let it flow, beautiful until we fought and I was not as supportive to him as he was for me. I was just telling him I need to grow, I am not ready I need to travel and he was settling and telling me to do so with him.
We broke up, I left to my family in my native country.
After a month I message him, he was missing me. Few weeks later I message him again he then told me quite cold he was cutting ties with me.
I emailed him 2 other times through the year, one time just missing him another because I heard something bad had happened to him. He never replied.
I stayed here working on myself, quite bad, letting myself deal with emotions, I thought was the best to do.
Never went to him as the covid lock countries.
Today I still think of him, so many different ways, I guess because he did a lot of effort and helped me to reconnect with life. I don't think I marked his life materially as he did, my purpose back then was to give on a subtil level, mental, spiritual, which is harder to grasp but to me had important value.
Today I feel more balance , I worked on the stuff that were wrong about me, didn't heal it all of course.
I keep thinking he was a great partner. And I was shining back then with him.
What should I do? I heard he is building a great life and I feel low confidence and lower vibration: I didn't do great material accomplishment even tho I've developped myself too, beside crying him.
Its hard to carry on my life because I keep not wanting to forget him. I am so afraid to do more mistakes in life, misvaluing and live in regret for being impulsive and not seeing the big picture...
What do you think?