We were dating for more than 1 year. During the whole relationship, I am confident that i am a good person to him, and he always told me that too. I have loved him with all my heart, and he knew that and i think he felt suffocated by my overbearing love. I am always a forgiving person to him even though he made many mistakes, i am always the one who had to find a way to fix the relationship. I did everything and anything i could to make the relationship work.
2 weeks ago, one of his “friend” (this guy liked me and i think he wanted to ruin us) made fault rumors about me so he broke up with me. After i showed him every proofs that the rumors aren’t real, he said he believed me but he still wanted to break up (we are in a long distant for 3 months, i think he is getting bored of me so this is an excuse for him to dump me).
I felt hurt and couldn’t accept the break up, and couldn’t stand being misunderstood and accused of something i didn’t do so for the first 4 days, i kept blowing up his phone trying to find closure and begged him to come back, but he said i was crazy and it’s not good for me to love him too much like this and he is not good for me and blocked me everywhere.
So i decided to go no contact but i broke nc a few times and now it’s been 2 weeks after breakup but i still messaged him on another account to clarified the whole situation and for me to come clean because he didn’t give me a closure. He told me that he knows i am a good person and told me: “stop being crazy”, and he blocked me on that account again.
i know i should move on but i still want to know will men ever regret losing a good woman even though he thinks she was acting crazy and desperate? Is there anyway for me to gain back my dignity and my self-worth?
i know it was just an excuse for him to dump me so i don’t want him back, but somehow i still have selfishness and anger in me and i can’t move on so i want to see him regret it. I know i’m stupid for thinking like that.
