Why am I acting like a hoe after I broke up with him?

Anonymous
•I don’t have friends. I’m an independent woman who’s studying, have a small food business and another job where I work alone. I don’t use apps to meet men.
•I was just fine but since I feel this is our last time we ever talk to each other, I started accepting dates and had protected sex with a colleague from the food business.
• I have a year w/o sex and can go months like that.
• I was pretty sure I was not deeply into him but sometimes I feel I hate him. I broke up w/ him because he was pushing having kids and getting married and if I talk to other guys he will stop talking to me and call me immature.
•Long time ago when my first love broke my heart I became depressed and an alcoholic.
Why am I doing the same with this guy if a don’t love him.
Why am I acting like a hoe after I broke up with him?
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