A little context.
It's been almost 6 months since I broke up with my boyfriend! We've been together for a little over a year, and I was totally head over heels with him. He was funny, attentive, always keeping me on my toes, all in all everything I've wanted in a guy! After we broke up, at first, I was in denial, like we'll get back together in no time because we're meant to be! Then I became angry with him for not contacting me! I always looked for reasons to contact, and he answered every time in a friendly manner! But I got sick and tired of being the first one to reach out, so I stopped!
Funny enough, my friends were relieved with the breakup because, as they say, he was "a walking, talking red flag," which to this day I still don't see it.
So, after two months of radio silence, he did contact me once to wish me a happy new year, & that's it!
I decided that I had to do something and get out of the funk I put myself in and move on with my life! I stopped the constant checking of social media, I've successfully avoided mutual acquaintances so I won't have to hear about him and I even tried my best to avoid places that I thought of I might bump into him! And I was doing fine! I believed I was healing!
That is until a few days ago when I was out and about with a friend and I saw him from a distance! He was literally walking my way, and I had nowhere to hide! I was mentally preparing myself for everything that might happen, everything but him being so engrossed in his phone that he literally walked past me without a simple hi!
The wounds I thought were healed opened up again! The feeling like a knife is being twisted in my heart returned. I thought I was getting over him, but the delusion shuttered when I saw him in flesh after so long of no contact!
I've never felt this way before after a breakup! I believe he ruined me for good! I don't know how to handle it anymore. I thought of getting a professional help but I'm scared!
Can you relate to my situation?
