I broke up a few months ago with a very good friend of mine. It got toxic from both sides and our friends unfortunately had to suffer through it. Not to say which one was worse, but my actions were less bad than his and he made a big deal out of it.
I understand that every emotion are valid, but to try to make me jealous with another coworker, to act and precisely say to our mutual friends that he'll act like I don't exist, not wanting me to be mentioned in any way possible, avoiding places I am at with our friends, throwing looks at me... There has been tension and I apologized for my part which he said he didn't care (but through his eyes I could see another story).
I did love him and I was able to detach and realize that he might not be the one for me (for now or at all), and I was fine with it. But right now, as he has quit our job (we were colleagues too), I feel a bit sad that he didn't say goodbye or that we did not let bygones be bygones. It's my first big breakup and I don't know how to feel.
I want to reach out to him but he blocked me, I don't understand the big issue and I don't want to obsess too much over the past... but I feel like the story is not over?
What Girls Said
He obviously did want to make a clear cut and put his past behind him. If he blocked you, it is in particular so that you cannot open the wound by trying to contact him and apologize or to reach out. Breaking up a second time would be the ultimate blow that he could receive.
He realized that you are both toxic to each other and that you are actually are not made for each other on a long term basis. I know it is hard to accept the fact that one has made the mistakes that were bad enough to warrant a separation. What is done is done and you should accept the fact that both are going separate ways.
It was your first big breakup and I sincerely hope for you that you have learned something from it. Good luck.