Break Up & Divorce

I’ve turned into a stalker since we broke up?

So I’m facing my first real break up, of someone I still truly love. He kinda ditched me out of no where and it’s been 6 months with almost no contact. 3 months after the split I messaged him and he rang and shouted at me, so since then I haven’t bothered. I’m assuming he’s moving on and it is killing me. I dream about him every night, I am having broken sleep, I have no sexual desires anymore, I feel hungry but can’t eat, I have been off work sick for nearly the 3 months since I last reached out. I am walking around like a zombie and he is just on my mind 24/7. I can’t concentrate, I can’t watch tv, I can’t even go out with friends as I zone out of conversations. I’m not fun, I haven’t laughed or genuinely smiled since he left me. I have a holiday booked to Ibiza on Monday, and I won’t be going. I have fell behind of house work, and I have found myself daily walking or driving up his road for hours in the hopes I’ll see him and he’ll want me back. I know this is unhealthy and I have told myself I won’t do it again. How long will I feel like this, I know time is a healer but it’s just passing that time that is the problem

I’ve turned into a stalker since we broke up?
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