Apologize without feeling needy?

My boyfriend and I broke up a week ago. He asked for no contact a month ago. After 3 weeks of no contact, I called and asked him but he seemed to give the vibe that he is not interested anymore. I was mad because I feel like he didn’t care about me even though I posted sorry that I’m in hospital and also I saw he Facebook post posting half joking like he is single. He said sorry about those stuffs but when I asked him how he felt during the time he said he had peace and don’t think relationship can be improved. So I said then we should break up right away. He acted surprised and asked me if I’m sure but then later at night he texted that he is sorry for us and wish my dad well.

2 days later, I called him and asked why he acted surprised but he said just because we broke up before due date. It sounds weird to me. He said it’s enough between us.

During this time, I reflected a lot. I know I contributed to how things sudden changes. I wasn’t in my best self when dealing with stress. I didn’t fight with him but emotionally distant. I only realized how much I love him after we really broke up. I regret but I feel like he didn’t want to try despite my attempt. I wanted to apologize to him but I’m afraid he is taking the wrong way and we can’t even be friend or I come out as needy. Please help! It’s hard for me even to start conversation now after 1 week. Would that be bothering him?

Apologize without feeling needy?
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