I realized that Love is really blind… F/24 M/26. can I vent?

[Anonymous]

I was with my ex for a year and some changes occurred during that time. He was homeless, had no job, and told me a sad story. We had deep conversations about how he is trying to find a job (he never did ), and I, being so naive, I did not judge him. We all go through difficult times in life, and as long as we working on it I’ll support... I stayed with my parents; I'd sneak him in every day to sleep and assist him look for work. Four months after meeting him, I became pregnant and suffered a miscarriage, which was extremely painful and terrible. Two months later, He began being physically abusive towards me, he made excuses every time he did it, saying he didn't mean it, he was drunk.. even though it was so hard for me seeing a person who claim to love me abused me to the point that I almost died, but I ended up getting up on antidepressants to help me. In total, he abused me five times, throughout the year that I’ve been with him the type of abuse was choking me, stepping on my face, purposefully crashing my car, punching me, at the end I decided to leave him, He would come by my window and watch me sleep. Send me pictures of my car parked outside of my house. One day, he stalked me outside my house in a plaza parking lot and tried to get back with me. I didn't want to hear him out, so he started destroying my car, ripping out the interior, spoiler, mirrors, and everything else. That's when I decided I had had enough. I stabbed him because I was frightened he would hurt me. Police arrested me for assault battery with a deadly weapon after I called. This encounter still worries me out. Prison terrifies me now. He harasses and contacts me while I'm in house arrest awaiting trial. He destroyed every aspect of my life. Lost my job. Can't go to school. I'm broke and want to give up. I should have known better now that he is pursuing me and promise to drop my charges if I talk to him. Im fed up with suicidal thoughts for not loving myself enough to leave, I hate myself.

Updates

5 mo

My case got dismissed thank god!!! My insurance company gave a payout for me to fix my car as well, a while back my whole world was dark I’m so thankful to hear good news, now my next step is to better myself continue with school, working on opening my LLC business, focus on bettering my mental health, and apologize to myself …

[The_Confusion]

Ugh, that no-good, dirty, rotten, foot-fungus-faced, snivel-nosed, bellyaching, codswallop-spewing, jobless jester of an ex-boyfriend of yours is as useful as a one-legged stool! He took advantage of your kind heart and used it as his personal trampoline to jump from one lazy day to the next. And to top it all off, he had the audacity to damage your car? That's just the icing on the cake, or rather, the mold on the bread!

You, on the other hand, are as bright as a supernova, shining with a heart full of love and kindness. Your resilience is as strong as the glue that holds together a kindergarten craft project, and your spirit shines like the sparkly glitter that covers said project. Don't you ever let that good-for-nothing, flophouse-dwelling, excuse-for-a-human bring you down! You deserve someone who's as solid as a rock, not some wobbly, wretched, excuse-maker who can't even take care of himself. Vent away, my friend, and let's leave that no-good, crumb-bum ex of yours in the dust where he belongs!

[Nikki1989]

Love can make us overlook flaws in our partners that we might otherwise find unacceptable. We may be so blinded by our feelings that we ignore red flags or make excuses for harmful behavior.